7/27/2005 04:01:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|"What emotions do you have after you got mad at someone?" Although to my friends I may seem to be ice-cold, and kick away anything that comes my way with my no-nonsense approach to life, the truth is I am quite a moody fucker, I just don't get mad at someone in front of everybody and in their face, I keep my anger down until I am on my own (I don't even show it to my wife because I don't believe that it's fair to her to endure my moods, especially the bad ones). Sometimes when things pissed me off, I tell my wife about it, and she calms me down, always with success. My life experiences taught me that, every time incidents occurred and gone pear shaped, whoever's fault it was, I should still look back at that incident, and learn something from it. If somebody pissed me off, then I should learn to control my anger more effectively; and if I pissed somebody off, I should learn and not do it again. However, there was this one time (in the not-too-distant past) that I got mad at someone on the internet, and how the whole situation ended shed new light into how I perceive my anger, and that side of my emotions. The situation is very simple - somebody on the net pissed me off, and I unleashed all my anger at the wrong guy. Poor fucker, how he must felt when I released all my anger at him. I can control my emotions 80% of the time, but when I lose control of them, no matter what language I speak, English or Chinese, there are bound to be swear words and spiteful things, and I was just short of actually hitting someone. See? I am a moody fucker. The normal way for me is, in the unfortunate case of me lashing out at someone in public, I always feel bad about it, and I slap myself in the face, make public apologies, and I make sure the poor fucker knows that it won't happen to him again, and ask for his forgiveness. As my age grows, these sort of situations happen less and less frequent due to my successful controls of my emotions. However, this case I had on the net it's a little different - I lashed out at someone, I feel good that all those emotions have drained me, and I have no remorse. Hence all I did was apologise to that poor fucker which I didn't meant anyway, and then I carry on with my life as if nothing had happened! Most importantly, I was lashing out at the wrong guy! That in itself is a good reason to be remorseful in reality, and if I ever did that in real life my mind will be filled with so much guilt that I will feel bad about myself for a couple days, and yet I didn't give a fuck; this poor fucker publicised what I did to him, and to me he had every right to do so, but I still didn't give a fuck. Why is this? Why did I not show any sign of remorse? The main reason is probably because I don't know that fucker, and therefore I have no attachment to him. If I did that to my friends I will be devastated, even more so at colleagues because my future will probably be at stake; and I would never to such a thing at some stranger because that gives me a bad impression, and I care about those things. Since I couldn't see his face or don't know who he actually is, to me he is basically just an it,an object, to me. And yet, my conscious self is sure that however fake some people appears to be over the net, they are still, theoretically, a human being right? So why wasn't giving him any respect that I should give to a human being? Another reason is possibly because I don't give a rat's arse what he thinks of me, since I don't know him and he doesn't know me anyway, what harm will that do me? Which can then be deduced that I don't give a damn what people on the net thinks of me. I made friends on the net, both Platonic relationships and friends that eventually become real friends. I care about what friends think of me, because they are good people, and therefore I like them and care for them; this is an indication that I don't treat ALL people on the net as mere objects. Of course, this only applies to the people who I like, if they are people who I neither know or like, the case will be somehow different - I appear spiteful, foul-mouthed, obnoxious, moody, ill-mannered, and simply a pretty-hate-machine (NIN, yeah!). Yet, because it's the internet, because neither of us knew each other in reality, because internet is the place where I can express my emotions fully and completely, weighing this against my personalities that I possess, in conclusion I still don't give a fuck what people I don't know or hate thinks about me. Some can argue that I may be suffering from some sort of internet complex where I appear a different person from who I am really, in that case I beg to differ. I speak my mind, both in front of my wife, my real friends, my classmates and my colleagues; In contrast, I believe that the internet is a place where I amplify my mind to a much wider audience - I do the same thing I do as I do in reality (these bitching, don't think that I don't tell my friends about it), but since there's no holding back towards the majority of the audience whom I don't give a shit about, I appeared to have amplified my emotions and my thoughts; since there's now a much wider spectrum of audience, of course there are people who're bound to not like me. They are entitled to their thoughts, I have nothing against that, but they wouldn't like coming here and listen to my bitchings anyway. I shouldn't have apologised to that poor fucker in the first place - what's the point? How good is an apology when I didn't mean it anyway? In fact, I should thank him because he unconsciously became my personal punchbag, so after I let out all my emotions I feel extremely good and able to carry on. I was merely intrigued by my reaction towards what was essentially the same situations but revived in a different context, that's all. However, if you ever had any such experiences please feel free to leave a comment, I would love to hear your say on this.|W|P|112247651968168375|W|P|Something I find also interesting...|W|P|7/27/2005 01:54:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|If you haven't realised already, I have changed the template of my blog from white to red. Just for a little bit of in your face fun. Haha! However, since I foolishly forgot to backup the links etc. I will have to do them all over again, damn!|W|P|112246893053890805|W|P|Right I feel like a rare steak today!|W|P|7/27/2005 10:24:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|(Disclaimer: If you don't like rock music, prefer mainstream rock/pop stuff, don't like guitars, not a Pink Floyd/Roger Water/Dave Gilmour fan, or don't possess an open mind to explore different kinds of music rather than those you like, then it's best for you not to read on and listen. The owner of this blog takes no responsibility for any damage, whether physical, emotional and psychological, caused from wrongfully taking my advice, in other words - I don't give a fuck if you don't like it; also, there's no need to tell me that I am infringing copyright laws, I am fully aware of that thank you very much) 22-27) If you think Pink Floyd's music is edgy and non-commercial in general, think again. True-to-the-bone die hard fans will tell you that there's the commercial 'Floyd, with breakthrough albums like Dark Side of the Moon and The Wall which sets them on the same level with Gods like Led Zeppelin, and then there's the not so commercial 'Floyd, namely the earlier stuff with old bandmate Sid Barrartt who eventually went mad (this is way way before the admission of Dave Gilmour, present guitarist); in fact, there are some fans who will tell you that there is in fact no Pink Floyd ever since the day Sid Barratt went mad. For me though, this album, although not made with Sid Barratt, sits happily in the non-commercial zone. To me, this album knocked Dark Side of the Moon off the second best Pink Floyd Album spot (the first is always The Wall and the movie starring Bob Geldof). There are 5 songs in this album, may sound like an EP for some, but this album has a total length equals that of Dark side of the Moon - about 40 minutes. So the first indication that this album isn't mainstream is the length of each of the individual songs which, when first released in 1978, can't be played on the radio at all because it's too long. This also ties in with the fact that it's the 70s we are talking about, when punk movement was at it's peak in the UK, and 3 minutes was the normal length of a song then. Apart from that, there's also an indication that Pink Floyd as a whole was changing direction, from a 4 piece band to Roger Water and the Pink Floyd - Water is dominating the whole band, and relationship-wise the whole band is falling apart. One can see that when examining the credit and the flavour of the album, Water wrote pretty much everything, and the album is more united and conceptualised than say Dark Side of the Moon or Wish you were here. Concept-wise Animals isn't the best album, The Wall is, but nevertheless this album is great in the sense that it's a pioneer for latter day Floyd music. The music and the lyrics are also quite different from what they made earlier. While Dark Side of the Moon is a masterpiece it's beautifully simple, Animals saw Gilmour both injecting more aggressive guitar riffs, great blinding solos, and thick-as-milkshake textures into each song. One can safely say that he had come a long way since his debut days, and established himself not only as a prominent guitar god but a prolific song writer. The Water Lyrics though, are what struck me the most. If you remember their previous two albums, what Water wrote are social observations of the British society, but in Animals it's not that anymore, it's a vicious attack on the state of the British society, represented by three types of animals - dog, pigs and sheeps; meanwhile Pigs on the wings part 1 and 2 are two side of a simple short love song, eerie but ties in well with the other three songs, like a coat. First there's the 17 minute epic Dogs. It fucking scare me when I saw the length of the song, it's certainly as long as one of the live songs that Jimmy Page played in his live gigs. Dogs are your businessmen - back stabbing, money loving, simply evil bastards, and no no, Water doesn't like them much; then there's Pigs (three different ones) - my personal favourite because of that angry guitar solo at the end. This song is iconised (at least to me) by a South Park episode when Eric Cartman sings, "Haha! Charade you are!". Pigs are righteous, unforgiving, egoistic bastards with sky high moral standards, and with this song there's no holding back for Water, attacking Mary Whitehouse, some sort of moral standard campaigner at that time, an old hag now; finally there's Sheep, well, basically the masses, with no sense of direction or their own opinion, therefore easily manipulated. Basically speaking, this album isn't an album that you can listen to easily. It's neither happy or melancholic like their usual stuff, but an album full of rage and spitefulness. It's so alternative that mainstream Pink Floyd fans don't know much about it, or even don't like it; I certainly didn't realise that such an album was made by Pink Floyd when I first heard it. What's even more sad about this album, however, is how little the British society changed since the volatile 70s. I recommend this album to you, but not wishing that you will like it, but in hoping that you will also appreciate the consciousness we should all have in social issues locally, and around the world, which I believe HK youths are lacking. Featured songs: Pigs on the Wings part 1, Dogs, Pigs (three different ones), Sheeps, Pigs on the Wings part 2. (picture from www.amazon.com)|W|P|112245676911961221|W|P|I can't help but to share with you...|W|P|7/26/2005 10:26:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|OMFG, this is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO funny...|W|P|112241323701587024|W|P|�֪L�x�w�ح^���|W|P|7/25/2005 11:03:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|UhMmmmm (clear my throat)... Regarding recently the site where I normally put my writing had deleted what I wrote due to my own negligence (no worries, I have about 3 seperate backup places), I made myself another blog dedicated to what I wrote, in hope that I will kick myself to write something, although I didn't write anything lately (lately? You didn't write shit for the last half year!). Also, since I write mostly in chinese, that blog will then be in, surprise surprise, chinese! It's here if you want to goto it, bookmark it and things. It's not up and running yet, but soon will be, starting with what that site deleted from me - a soon-to-finish story called �mĵ���P�ߡn...and many more coming (after I made alterations to them). Oh, one final note, I turned off the comment there, and didn't intend to add haloscan, so any comments please either leave them here or write me an abusive email, I will be more than happy to read them, and then happily discard them afterwards (well they're abusive aren't they?).|W|P|112228615618707487|W|P|This is a fake blog, THAT one is the real one...|W|P|7/25/2005 01:45:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|First of all, although this is personal, I'm ok and don't feel depressed at all, in fact I'm reading news at the same time as writing this...also, because I was basically vegetating for the weekend, no energy wasted, so I'm still too energised to sleep yet :) Below is the speech I wrote, and presented at my mother's funeral. 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She once told me that she was sorry for not teaching me much when I needed it most, but the fact is - she did influenced me, whether the effect is good or bad. Frankly, although she didn't teach me verbally like a teacher, but her whole life, how she dealt with all sorts of matters, wrongly, and events proceeding her accidental death, had taught me a whole lifetime of things. It's pretty ironic, but in a way I'm glad that it happened, it gave me the kick my arse seriously needed at that time. If my mum didn't teach me much during her life, the mere event of her leaving this world taught me more things than 18 years in an academic envrionment. If you want to know what I think - what I wrote above conveyed only emotions, serves the mere purpose of reviving the guests memories and tried to condole their grief and mine; I painted a picture of myself who is strong but in immense grief. I was, and that was enough at the time...well I couldn't exactly write bitter things, even though my mum's ex was there - in fact, I invited him to the funeral, and he 'gladly' paid for the whole thing - I influenced him to pay for the funeral (if you've ever orgainsed one of them before you will know that these things don't come cheap...in my mum's case let's say the price reached 6 figures), and he could only oblige. That's the least I could do for my mum. I mean her ex (I refuse to call him by name, he's not worthy of such an honour from me) wasn't exactly Mr. Nice guy - ok so they were still on-and-off even after their split, that I couldn't care, but happily nibbling away my mum's money as well? How does he sleep at night? Oh I forogt, he gets pissed out of his fucking brains every night. Yes, so he also brought my mum another flat, however since it was written under his name, effectively my mum was just a fucking tenent and he can kick her out anytime; meanwhile I inherited my mum's flat which has 0 value, and I still own the bank millions; his flat made a profit when he sold it, good for him. Honestly, at the funeral I had the urge to kick the living shit out of him, maybe with the help of a few hitmen, but I held back, even when my wife wasn't there (due to some superficial reason she couldn't attend to my mum's funeral, which I totally respect), I smiled at him and talked to him like nothing had happened between us...of course, if he's paying for the whole thing, then fair enough. Basically, I treated him the best I could, and even some of my mum's close friends thought I've forgiven him, even after what he did to my mum. I just smiled at them and shrugged it off. If you ask me the same question again, I will tell you I neither forgave him nor intend to, however, let's put it this way - I really didn't give a fuck - why spend precious time hating one person who doesn't concern you anymore? Besides I have far more important things in my life to do and to hang on to hatred. At the funeral I neither talked about how my mum's ex treated her even after the break up, nor the descend of her psychological state at the time, how she was driven by her own sadness, and this man, to commit suicide, twice; albeit both times it failed - The first time thanks to one of her good friends realising something was wrong at the time, the second time I rang 999 straight away to get her wheeled to the nearest hospital and get her stomach cleaned out. These things were inappropriate to talk about at times of grief, but apart from talking to my wife about it, I didn't talk to any of my mum's friends about it at all. They didn't ask, and I don't feel the need to tell them. If you ask for my opinion on my mother, I would say that she just couldn't let go of this guy, even after he moved on she still couldn't let go. Once I asked her why, she told me that because this guy had promised that he will love her forever. I can understand how distraut she was when they broke up, but you must also know that I don't agree with her hanging on to something that's just wouldn't be. I must say here that my mum's life, relationship wise, wasn't easy, none of them were happy (if any one of them was, things might be very differently), and this certainly has a lot of adverse psychological effect on her. She once told me that she cannot live without a man by her side, and when she's alone she feels really lonely and depressed; she told all she asked for was a good man who treats her well, but how come everytime it ends up in sadness. I feel really sad for her, I said, because she was really unlucky in choosing guys, and it gets her when the guys blame her for driving them away, which I think is total bollocks - to me, no single person is responsible for a break up, both sides are to blame, no matter how they split apart. She also responded very heavily when I talked to her about the future of I and my wife (still girlfriend then) - she will stay in HK whilst I will be in the UK; my mum said that no matter what happens I shouldn't leave her alone here, got really angry when I wouldn't barge one bit, and eventually broke down in tears; she said she just couldn't bear seeing us being apart from each other and become lonely and sad. I didn't reply her at that time because I didn't know how to, and couldn't since she's passed away now. I just hope, if she's still here, she now understands why we made that heart breaking decision. In a way, with her passing away, it probably did her ex some good as well, because at least his mind will be relieved, otherwise I just don't know how my mum was going to live the rest of her life. Maybe she will end up like my grandmother, which to me isn't a good sight at all. Also, her financial side was awful (I admit her spending habit and poor financial management influenced me quite heavily before), and although I had already urge her to spend less back then, I had no idea how she could cope with such long term financial stress given her illness, especially when she wasn't working anymore, I mean I berely managed to cope with that avalanche of debt, when it nearly collapsed on me. Looking back further, with hindsight I would have told my mum not to sell that first flat and give the money to grandpa so that he can fuck off somewhere, and personally kick my grandpa out of my fucking house, alas I was only 7 back then. I think from then on my mum just went berserk on spending because she lost that symbollic first flat of hers, and to such a useless cause. She never brought a flat ever since, until a couple of years ago in the most inappropriate time - after the breakup. Talk about retail therapy, but that I thought just went too far, especially when I was neither consulted nor informed about the purchase at all. Her lifestyle also has quite a lot to do with her ultimately poor financial status - whenever she goes out to eat she's always the one who's paying. I really didn't mind that because I knew she's supposedly perfectly capable of doing such things if she wanted to, but what I mind is the fact that she was doing it whilst sitting on a mountain of debt. She went to the extent of borrowing money to fuel her consumption binge, and at the same time pay for my hefty tuition fees as well. TodayI can prpobaly manage her money and debt without much problem, but at that time I still didn't have a clue how deep a hole she was in (I was just a prick back then). When I went to the police station in the mainland to discuss the accident, the policeman told me what the doctors had said before - she wasn't even making an effort to try to breathe (she was still conscious when they sent her to emergency), as if she had lost the will to live. I asked them if she was painful at all, they said it was quite quick - less than an hour. At that particular moment, I thought to myself, for once she had her own way, during the final hours of her life. For a couple of years she had been talking about leaving this place, with two failed attempts, it certainly made me believe that the final hours probably came as a relieve for her. As for me, I should sleep now, feeling sleepy already... :)|W|P|112225238945046207|W|P|Some reflections...|W|P|7/24/2005 10:22:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click on the title, read it. It's from the BBC news website, basically stating that Blair took out about 1800 pounds of tax money on make-up. I don't know what you think, but I think this is bloody ridiculous! He's the head of the fucking UK for God's sake (The Queen is just a muppet, and anyway she's filthy rich), do you expect him to spend 0 pounds and go out looking like a fucking donkey? What's the big fuss? And anyway, the amount of money he spent on this is modest when compared to other heads of states...|W|P|112224018639438448|W|P|Oh, please, give me a break!!!|W|P|7/23/2005 07:55:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|...I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of you who have left comments on my emotional piece last night, I just wanted you all to know that, now you share my most inner secrets, together with my wife, and my best friends, whether you like it or not, there's no turning back now...WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~~~ I love you all.|W|P|112214492523874179|W|P|Thank you, all of you who left comments...|W|P|7/22/2005 11:36:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|(Disclaimer: please don't read this if you don't want to) I don't think that my depression is so bad that I need to see a doctor - it was certainly better than a couple of years ago when I always had suicidal thoughts, even then I didn't see a doctor. However, those were desperate times, and that called for desperate measures - Valium? Don't be kidding, I had harder stuff. By the time My mother had tried to commit suicide for the first time (fortunately it failed), it daunted on me how vulnerable us humans are, and seeing someone ODing right in front of my eyes reinforced that fact as well. Whenever I used to feel depressed, I write, and in writing I managed to find myself (at least my sanity) yet again, through that grayness expressed by words. Therefore, the things that I wrote before are quite depressing, and I don't hold back when I write - I let the emotions run out, so that when I finished writing my heart always beat faster than it was before. When my depression strikes me, with all the nostalgia, images starts flashes back and forth my mind, all the things that I did, and all the things that I wish I haven't done. I always ended up crying, and I used to try my best to avoid these emotions, but as I came to realise over time, the best way to beat them is to face the thing that I feared most. I've told my wife about these things, and if she's here, whenever depression strikes me I will just talk to her. I used to stop myself thinking by writing novels, or working myself flat out, but since this keyboard of mine is a little fucked I cannot write without being interrupted at all, nor I have anymore energy to waste on other things, so I must resort to telling you a little about my personal life instead. I always felt the need to express at these times, and if I don't suicide thoughts will crop up again eventually. If you don't want to read any of this, you can totally ignore it. Otherwise please bear with me, and let me take you through a little journey of my humble life. If any of you ever read what I've wrote (they are all in the archive somewhere), those stories always come to a good ending. I personally don't believe in bad endings, although I have written stories with bad endings before, it just doesn't feel right. So unless a bad ending is necessary and feels right, I don't write them at all. I never learnt how to write (novelwise) properly - if properly implies that I learnt all the techniques at school and from studying literature. When I was 9 I went off to the UK, a country which, at that time, has very little Chinese articles to read. It was the early 90s back then, so definitely no internet by then. The way I managed to not lose my Chinese heritage is by reading Jin Yong (��e) novels. I just picked up a book by random in a bookshop at the airport, and I can never put a book down since. A year later I've already read through half of them - given I was a 9 year old kid I think that's quite an achievement, this was done of course with the help of a dictionary. There's one thing upon my literature journey that I can always be proud of - I read the whole of Lord of the Rings when I was 11 (also with the help of a dictionary) - which I've been reading for one and a half years. However, when I get to secondary school, surprisingly I didn't like any of the English literature lessons at all. I've read Shakespeare, Dickens, Orwell, but since I have to analyse the fucking stories as well it just wasn't fun anymore. At the same time, various girls starts appearing in my little adolescent life. Sex (still a taboo for me back then) was definitely more fun than the adventures of Tom Sawyer, by Mark Twain. Every kid who studied abroad must have a guardian until they're 16 (or 18 I can't remember). My guardian used to be the headteacher in a School in Tsing Yi, and he taught my aunts and uncles years ago. He's a shrewd man, a dick in fact, and in the end it turned out that he took quite a lot of my money, which my mother gave him to keep for me in confidence - I should have put all the money into a fucking bank, if only I knew. All I knew that was I didn't like him one single bit, but since I was all alone out there, I have no one else to turn to. My mother was always too busy with her own life, and we only talk like once a month for about 3 minutes. I've come to know quite a few friends, who alas I lost contact them over the years, whilst under this guardian. Rebels they were, well at least at that time I thought they were anyway, underage drinking and smoking and all that. My mum smoked, but I was never influenced by her to do anything like that, in fact, she tried her hardest to not get me into those things. I was perfectly aware of that, and hence all my actions were made by myself, not aware of the consequences of course. My fallout with this guardian came a few years later - when one of my mother's very good friend's son Derek came over to study as well. He knew me since I was three, so if we are friends then we knew each other for a very long time. He always have massive arguments with this guardian, and he found out that he had been using most of my money as well - he asked me once, "How much money do you get from him each week?" Him meaning my guardian. I told him about 10 pounds, to which he replied with rage, "Ridiculous, your mother gives you about 10000 pounds each year!" He then went to question my guardian, which expectedly ending up in argument. He left him, and took me with him. My mother certainly wasn't too happy about this, but more so at Derek because to her he was just a spoilt rich kid with all the money in the world to spend. It was at this time that I started to smoke and drink, under influence of Derek. Even with that sort of reputation, Derek treated me well. Til this day, I still think how Derek treated me back then was out of sincerity, and he treated me like a brother - he literally told me and taught me everything that he knows, as naive adolescents are, Derek's twisted way of thinking also influenced me as well. Derek has his own way with girls, and girls just seems unable to resist him. He's a natural womaniser I must say, and he even went to great lengths to tell me how he used to deal with girls, which I can sum it up in three words - money, perseverance, and confidence. It's simple just saying it, but implementing them seems difficult. At this stage, I think you can understand why my mother wasn't too happy that I was now living with him. We lived in London, and basically very close to each other - both my mother and his mother had a flat in Belgravia Square, London; however since I was in boarding school and only goes to London when I was allowed to leave for long weekends, I was hardly in my flat at all, and whenever I goto London I always stayed at Derek's with him and his girlfriend Gil. Even with Gil, Derek still took me out to bars and nightclubs all over London, I had no idea back then how Gil must felt when she finds out that that Derek goes out clubbing, and ending up with different girls every night. That was some decadent lifestyles back then, with hindsight, I wished I never done that at all. At the same time, I was moving from secondary school onto university, as I grew older, more taboos were broken - sex I thought was just a little bit of harmless fun, but smoking, drinking, drugs? Jees I was living a junkie life, along with that nightlife of ours. I remembered also when my cousin introduced to me the internet one summer, I was totally startled, especially with ICQ - you can talk to anyone from anywhere! It was on the internet that I knew her, Sammy. My cousin knew her first, and then when my cousin showed me how to use ICQ, I got her contact as well. She, and my bad old junkie lifestyle, were the two memories that I most feared when depression strikes; I really REALLY wished that I never met her, because then I would never hurt her like I did. You know how naive teenagers with internet, we talked, talked, talked (by typing), from day to night, and from night to day. Even when I went back to the UK we remained in contact with letters (letters are more sweet, in my opinion, much more than emails), we went so well together that I asked her out. I hadn't receive another letter from her, until three weeks later, with her reply - yes. With her there were no dirty things - the thought of sex never even crossed my mind. I knew I love her (or at the very least, have feeling as strong as a hurricane for her), and as long as she's happy I don't ask for anything more. She was beautiful, kind, big heart, timid, everything...my most vivid memory with her was when I was walking with her on a busy street in Causeway Bay, she came across a stray dog, that dog has a collar, so he's must simply be lost. I ended up walking around, in circles, in Causeway Bay with her because she was determined to find the dog's owner. Amazingly she succeeded (just a we were going to take the dog to the nearby police station). Given my phobia of dogs, I still can't believe that I can be in proximity with a dog for that long without kicking it even once. The power of love, sigh... Then this guy came between us. Tony, a very nice guy - handsome, clever, big hearted etc.. When he appears, I knew that he was a much better guy than I ever could be - he was in direct competition with me of course. He went to the same school with Sammy, and I was told by Sammy's friends that he was a very nice guy as well. By the way, I was spoilt, moody, immature, not as clever, not as handsome, and certainly quite a naughty boy at that time, my brain has yet start to develop. A thought was implanted into my mind - what chance do I have against him? No joke, I was already thinking about giving Sammy up, and hand this lovely girl over to this lovely guy. She's way better off with him than with me, I thought, he doesn't smoke, doesn't drink, has no bad habits, a good man in general; me? I already smoke and drink at that time, and drugs as well - marijuana? Don't kid me man, speed is the stuff, along with ecstasy (MDMA) and K-Jai (Katamine), occasional recreation crack as well - Sammy didn't know this of course, because I always go out with her at day, and I go out clubbing with Derek at night. (she never once questioned why I always looked like a piece of crap whenever I was with her) If you ever wondered how the hell a teenager can go into a nightclub or bar at all, it's because Derek had his connections, so I can go in with him. I've already made up my mind then, and I was going to get rid of Sammy. I employed the most stupid way possible to get rid of Sammy deliberately - sleep with one of her friends (her name was Rita), and confront her afterwards. You would have thought, how? Well, I basically just spent a week courting her, and succeeding finally. Sammy found out of course, and came to find me, I slapped her face and told her to go away, "I never loved you," I said, "and if you think I did, then you're wrong. I never loved you, now piss off to him!" Him implying Tony. I don't think I can ever forget that face of hers - her pretty face was sobbing and full of tears, she didn't take her eyes off me, but I knew that there were some hell of emotions running through her eyes, and her mind. I wished she could just kill me with her bare hands, because I really wanted to kill myself. She ran off, and I never saw her again, literally. That plot was similar to�m�h���C�ȵL���C�n(written by �j�s, also called�m�p��M�n), and how fucking stupid of me! Why would I do such a thing? And from a fucking novel!?!? If you ask me now, I still had no idea why I did what I did back then, at that time I really thought that I was doing her good because she will be with a much better person (and til this day, she's still with him), but thinking back now, that's possibly the most stupid thing I've ever done in my whole shitty fucking life. I've told my wife this, even she thinks that I was fucking stupid. If you've ever tasted your own tears before, you will agree that the taste really changes - it's salty normally, but when you have sobbed so much that your eyes goes red, it goes bitter, and then eventually it loses all taste...But that's probably just my tongue losing taste because I was drinking too much at the time (still underage...Damn!). I hated myself from then on, and I just didn't make an effort to live my life at all, I simply didn't give a fuck if I died the next day; and since my mother was in Hong Kong and I in the UK, and we have scarce contact, she never knew what I was going through, just like I never knew what she went through either. When I told Derek this, he smacked me on the back of the head and said, "That's for being stupid, and now let's go out!" I still couldn't figure out what he meant back then. Gil smiled at me, patted me on my back, offered my some cigarette, and started sharing her humble life story with me... The rest were, as I've said before, just drugs, sex and rock N' roll. A couple of years later, I was going out with one of Sammy's friend, Eva. Although I had totally lost contact with Sammy, and hence her friends, Eva still talked to me on ICQ, and that's how I found out about Sammy, through her. Eva was fully aware what I've done to Sammy, and she knew because she's also friends with Rita. I had no idea what she was thinking when she went out with me, nor did I care because I was just looking for a really really casual relationship, basically just sex, no hearty stuff. I think that Eva hope that she could change me, because she tried very hard to get me to open up to her and talk about my life, only to be met with failure of course. She told me once that, "I know you still fancies Sammy, but can't you just give me a chance? Even if you don't, can't I substitute for her?" She was probably lying about that, for I knew that no girl would want to be a mere substitute for another, I just wasn't moved one bit. At that time, Sammy and all her friends went to the US to study. I was in university then, and I think that since they all went to the same school, and that was a private school, so they all have similar backgrounds, and hence they were all able to goto the US to study further. So it was another long distance relationship for me (if one counts the one with Sammy as well). I met my wife at university, but before we started going out a couple of years later, I was still with Eva, along with the regular nightlife. One night I received a call from Eva, she was crying really badly, and she demanded to break up with me. I was totally in the cold and didn't know what happened, she just shouted at me, "You fucking know what you've done!" and hung up on me. It wasn't hard to find out what happened, because I soon found out that one of Eva's friend saw me at a nightclub getting jiggy with some other girl, and that was it really. I just sighed and moved on, that was how cold I was. In the abyss, a few things changed my mind - my mother's failed attempt to commit suicide, my wife's affection for me back then, and the holiday I took when I went to Illinois to visit a friend of mine (these latter day happenings were written in an article from the last time depression struck (and I ended up an insomniac), archived somewhere in this blog, here). I returned from the US almost enlightened - I was still the same, but I no longer wanted to hurt myself, drink, smoke, do drugs; and I no longer agree with what Derek was doing - he was wasting his life away. I never questioned him on what he's doing, he went through some really rough times within his family as well, but I just suddenly realised that I must move on. Gladly I did. Chinese people always said "�~�ֻ��g" - youths are always irresponsible and impulsive, but I fucking hated it, because I have to live with those guilts for the rest of my life. Whenever depression strikes, it always brings back these exact memories, and I always felt guilty about it, even if I've made up to the girls I hurt years later by apologising to them (in a way, I'm glad that I did, otherwise my mental state would be much worse than it is now). I wished I've never done these things, ever, and just live a normal well-off life, without ever having to live with such guilt. These guilts are exactly the reason why I try fucking hard to not to make the same mistakes twice. Sigh, I don't know what more I can do when next time depression strikes, maybe write a little more about myself...|W|P|112207206402574044|W|P|{Don't read this if you don't want to be bored} Depression strikes me yet again...|W|P|7/22/2005 02:19:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|I saw this at sidekick's blog (it's linked by clicking the title, but in chinese only I'm afraid), and she was talking about how young people these days like to act like they are really old, saying things like (0bviously), "Sigh, we're getting so old." "lighten up man, the world has always been like this anyway." You know, phrases that sound like we are all going to die together tomorrow. I found this very interesting, and would like to share my own views on this. Here's my reply to sidekick below: �y�N�ѤU�L�ġM���N�L�ର�O�z Many are like this in this world (not just HK). Telling people that they sussed everything out is one matter, when they are experiencing it for themselves first hand though, that��s another matter, and they tend to react differently to what they say they would do (i.e. get angry like everyone else). As for me, I don��t like telling people that I sussed everything out, because I haven��t, and the truth is, things in this world never cease to amaze me. OTOH, why would I want to make myself sound old and boring? The fact is I��m not old! I��m still too young to become one of those old folks who sit in the park all day. 20 something isn��t old at all, for me, 40 something can still be called young, relative to 80 to 100 years old. Of course, that also depends on their life experiences - look on the bright side, they may have experienced a lot in their humble 20 something years so that they can become a monk or something�K Maybe, this is comparable to ��kids always like to act like they��re old, whereas old people like to act like they��re kids.�� This isn't just a HK phenomenon, it happens everywhere. My questions are: Why is this? Are we growing faster than we thought, so at the mere age of 30 or below we're already behaving like old people? I assume that's what old people say, if the sentence "sigh, I'm getting so old" doesn't imply at they the speakers are old, then I don't know what does, and anyway why do we want to act old, when we're blatantly vibrant and young? Compare ourselves with older generations - people who lived through the second world war for example. What's the worst thing that ever happened to us? Failing exam grades? Got scolded by our boss for incompetence? Mentally and emotionally weak? Our experiences are nothing when compared to those who endured that war, so what right does one has when one acts on things with a matter-of-fact attitude, like they already knew everything? In fact, experienced or not, we shouldn't act on things with that attitude, because you can fool some people some time but you can't fool everybody all the time. Someone questioned on the grounds that why can't young people say these things? So it's only a privilage for old people? And if Young people said this then they're acting old? (indeed, the next reply, after mine, at sidekick's blog, in chinese, implied on this) I found this line of questioning not sound at all, and here's why: 1) What they say and what they are are contradicting physically - take, for example, "Sigh, I'm getting so old" coming out of a 20 something/30 something, or even 40 something. I don't know what one's idea of old is, but my idea of old is definitely not those ages - in fact, I don't class 40 somethings as old at all. Old for me is at least 60 years old, and even so these 60+ are still young when compared to 80 somethings. Now that's old, but still, we have 100+ years olds. Therefore, if one likes to say that one is old but doesn't appear to be so (unless they're over 60 but managed to beat every cosmetic company in the world by inventing something that REALLY reverse the aging process), to me they are acting. 2)As I've said before, each person's reaction to different situations reflect their individual life experiences, however this isn't necessarily proportional with their age - my parents both died when I was 20, I was nearly forced to file for bankrupcy because of insolvency - I basically cannot repay that millions of dollars of debt my mother held before her death, I own cars, flats, shares, bonds, FX, etc., and I am happily married. Of course I'm not the only one doing these things, but the fact that I am doing the same things as some 30, or 40 year olds doesn't automatically mean that I'm old, far from it. I'm still young, and that's a fact. It's funny how we all holds the assumptions that the older we are, the wiser we are. That's generally true (statistically), we gain more experiences in life as we move on, and I believe that one of the reasons why people would like to act old is because they want other people to perceive them as wise, hence more clever. But what is wisdom? Does life experiences necessarily equal wisdom? Life experiences certainly equals knowledge (assuming that one is not a moron who can't learn from their mistakes...what do you mean you are not a moron? Even dogs learn from their mistakes), but I don't have a definite answer on this. According to dictionary.com, wisdom is: 1: accumulated knowledge or erudition or enlightenment 2: the trait of utilizing knowledge and experience with common sense and insight 3: ability to apply knowledge or experience or understanding or common sense and insight 4: the quality of being prudent and sensible 5: an Apocryphal book consisting mainly of a meditation on wisdom; although ascribed to Solomon it was probably written in the first century BC Each under different context, but they all implied on two central requirements - knowledge, and insight. So with life experiences comes knowledge, however without learning from that knowledge there will be no insight; and even if you do, without communicating with people to let others know about your insights, how the fuck do they know that you have insights, and in some cases, wisdom? I certainly believe that if one always says things matter-of-factly, without much sound reasoning or insights to back it up, then one is certainly not as wise as they think they are. Friends and wisdom don't come matter-of-factly. In fact, nothing does. 3) More importantly, saying things like "lighten up man, the world has always been like this anyway" so matter-of-factly, to me, shows how good a fucking friend you are (if you don't get sarcasm, this means you aren't a fucking good friend at all); it also seems to me that you aren't taking what they say, what they're gonig through seriously enough. Let's have a scenario - If one of your friends was scolded by their boss and they don't like it, they told you what happened to him/her angrily when you two are out for a drink in a pub/bar/whatever. S/He's obviously not a happy bunny, now what will you say to him/her? Will you: a) Try to cheer him/her up, offering some similar experience of your own, and both of you end up scolding both your bosses together, taking it all out? Or b) Do the same as a), but instead of getting angry with him/her as well, you laugh it off, saying that "tomorrow will be a better day anyway"? Or c) Just say, "lighten up man, the world has always been like this anyway" and move onto something else? Or d) Say nothing, offer him another drink, and just sit next to him when he let it all out? Or e) Do something else? Which one you choose solely depends on your personality, and the way you treat your friends. Let's put it this way, when the same thing happens to you, how do you want your friend to react? Do you want to be comforted, lash at your boss, or do you just want to drink and drown in your own sorrows? Whenever things like this happens, I choose b), because I believe that's what cheering people up means. Ending up getting angry with your friend (a) doesn't cheer him up anymore than fighting a polar bear with his bare hands. I won't do d) because drinking too much isn't good for anybody (but if I know that particular friend prefers silence, then I will just sit there and listen, just won't buy him anymore drinks), and I don't choose e) because I already chose to do b). For me, when I'm not in a good mood, the last thing I wanted to hear is people coming to me and just say shallow things like in c). What's the fucking point? Are you patronising me? I should be the one patronising here, not you. I too fucking know that the world has always been like this, but what good will that do me with you reinforcing that? When I share bad things with people, I don't expect them to solve the problem for me, that's what I myself must do, I just tell them because they are friends; but something that cheers people up will often be nice. Treat others the way you want them to treat you, and because I treat others with sincerity and all my heart, I shall get the same in return. If I don't, then they aren't friends that worth having anyway - In fact, that's what I do, I share my experiences with people and I tell them how I faced it, then hopefully they will find my experiences and reactions useful and maybe think about it, and then come up with their own solutions. I don't expect anything back because I like doing that, and I like helping others who aren't as fortunate as me. That's how deep friendships develop. If you and your friends only talk fucking nonsense all the time, I don't question your friendship, but maybe you want to ask yourself how well do you know your friends, and how will your friends treat you when more challenging times come. I myself don't take nonsense bollocks for an answer, if you're going to cheer your friend up, DO IT PROPERLY! If you're going to make a friend, do it properly as well! Of course, regardless of age and experiences, saying things like this aren't just old people's privilages, in fact, you can say whatever the fuck you like for all I care. However, there's one very good line in Batman Begins which I think we should all take in, "It's not who you are that defines you, it's what you do that defines you." So of course you can say things like the above matter-of-factly, but what will other people, your friends, your colleagues etc., think of you? The best will be "God he sounds boring and old!" (that doesn't go well with girls at all if you're single), the worst will probably be "What a shallow fucker! Get the fuck out of my face!" Back to the main point. Why does one want to act like they are Mr. know-how and hence have a lot of life experiences, and are bitter and old? This is a very interesting question. Maybe that's what their personalities are, in that case please don't come here because I don't want to be infected by these negativeness, I have enough of them running in my head already lol. Jaycy once shared with me her own life experiences, I shalln't disclose them here unless she approves. It's basically how she always reacted to adverse problems (believe me she had been in some bad situations) - positively and happily (called 'Ah Q' or '13 points' in Cantonese). In fact, I did think long and hard about this, because as she said before, when she first met me I always seemed to be unhappy, and everything is just grey for me. Given my wife's no-nonsense approach to life and everything, I then try very hard to combine the two together. Generally speaking, I try to be more positive in my thinking. I cannot say I already suceeded, but I'm certainly making some progress over the years, because nowadays when problems arise, instead of just freaking out, getting angry and thus can't reason probably, I take a deep breath, feel the adrenalin pumping through my blood - that is very important because it keeps my emotions flat, but stimulates my mind so I think faster - and then I think of possible solutions to the problem, implement them; if it doesn't suceed the first time, then I repeat the above, until the problem is finally solved. ��kids always like to act like they��re old, whereas old people like to act like they��re kids." I found this statement of mine really interesting, because I do it as a kid as well, maybe even now I act like I'm really old as well sometimes, and I have no doubt that talking endlessly certainly makes a few people think that I would like to act old and lecture them on my life experiences. Let me assure you, I'm very young, too young even for some people. When we as kids act old, what do we aim to achieve? Attention from your parents, or maybe those aunts and uncles that only comes around every so oftern, the desire to impress them and receives their attention; and what do we aim to achieve when we act old in our adolescences? Superiority above our peers, because of the way we want our peers to perceive us - we are superior to them (although this often isn't the case). I make no reservations on these judgments, because I myself acted like this when I was in my adolescence. Even recently, when I talk to my brother-in-law, sometimes I do so with an authoritarian voice, maybe subliminaly I tried to pose myself as superior to him. Conversely, old people act like kids as well - my grandfather-in-law acts like a kid sometimes, not a bad kid, but certainly not a good one either. Somehow I find his actions qutie cute, and he gets our attention (certainly gradnma-in-law's) this way. Maybe us as humans have a specific attention span to things that are very out of place, and we realise that, hence we always act like something we aren't to try and attract attention. So, why do you act old/young, when you're blatantly not? If this question applies to you, you're more than welcome to leave comments. Finally, the cartoon on sidekick's blog (in chinese as well), with the two piggies sitting in a bar raises another possibility - self-comforting, or even self-deceiving. The cartoon basically goes like this: 1) Pig B (on the right) saids angrily to pig A, "My boss has gone too far! He blames me for all the failures!" Pig A saids, "Just accpet it, this worls is always like this." 2) Pig B points at pig A and saids, "Isn't what you say just an excuse?" 3) Silence. 4) Pig A starts to sulk, now pig B is comforting him. However, although some people do indeed exercise self-comforting, I don't buy that theory myself. In my mind I always took adverse situations in life as a tough challange, and hence something can be learnt from them everytime after it's past. Ok so I get knocked down (that Chumbawumba song) and fail, but I learn, and then I get up again, and let that be a lesson to me. If I fail, I learn something, and not to make that mistake again; if I suceed, I learn something because this method works, and more importantly I can improve myself so I can do better next time. Either way I get to learn something, so it's a win-win situation for me. With this in mind, how can you say that life isn't good? I believe that us as humans do need emtional comforting sometimes when we feel down, so that we feel rejuvenated the next day and able to carry on, but constant self-comforting is for wussies, the only way to beat it is to face what you fear. I don't blame anyone but myself for my failures, even with hindsight I still blame myself, and I pledge to do better in the future, and I make sure I work fucking hard to prevent myself from making the same mistakes twice. There are still many things for me to learn in this world, and I am eager to learn them. As a capricorn, I really do believe that there's nothing in this world I can't achieve (like my master degree - I was shit at optics before, and like my interests in music, finance etc.), there's only stuff that I would like and wouldn't like to do, and that I wouldn't like to do list is shrinking as life goes on. These are merely my passions in life I guess. So, in conclusion, there's no absolute answer to what I've asked, but physically it's a definite no, and even if someone seems to have gain such wisdom at a young age, let's see how he utilises it. It's not who we are that defines us, but what we do that defines us. I shalln't go on anymore, because the data that took the computer about 4 hours to compute are finally out, so I'm going back to work|W|P|112203050054171323|W|P|"Are we old or are we young?"|W|P|7/21/2005 02:13:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Saw this at Simon's, read the official statement here, Bloomberg had gone as far as claiming that China will now instead peg to a basket of a dozen currencies. A 2.1% appreciation? That's never enough for the US (who wants about 28% rise by the way), but at least the US have to keep their mouth shut for a short moment. Observe the Hang Seng closely tomorrow, hot money will do their wonders yet again, probably; for those of you who brought RMB (I included), expect gradual rise for the next couple of years, since they now go for the basket currencies pegging theory. Update - 21/7/05 1522 - According to Business week, Hong Kong is now the only Asian currency that is officially pegged to the USD. Update - 21/7/05 1707 - Upon close look, found something really interesting. Check this clause out, from the official statement realeased: - 2. The People's Bank of China will announce the closing price of a foreign currency such as the US dollar traded against the RMB in the inter-bank foreign exchange market after the closing of the market on each working day, and will make it the central parity for the trading against the RMB on the following working day. This clause alone shows that nothing much has actually changed from before, apart from a 2% higher exchange rate (this will have no effect whatsoever), they are just going to announce the closing price after each day, and set that against the next trading day. We all know what that means - a nice way of saying don't try any of that funny shit with me mate, or I will make your fucking life hell. If you're a speculator, and you saw that, what is going through your mind now? Oh shit maybe? Since it's now against a basket of currencies, isn't it now a little hard to actually achieve any siazable profit?|W|P|112195168780050189|W|P|China revalues it's RMB!!!|W|P|7/21/2005 01:49:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Evatucation at three London Underground station (Warren Street, Oval, Shepherd's Bush) due to 'incidents', and emergency had received reports that there's an 'incident' on a said route '26' bus. Let's hope that these are isolated false alarms...|W|P|112195020701358763|W|P|Here we go again...|W|P|7/20/2005 10:27:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|(click on title to read article) ...well at least according to official statement accounced by Central bank governor Zhou XiaoChuan anyway, however there was no reference or attempt to reply to any speculations. I'm eager to see what the US is going to do in Ocotober, all that 'currency manipulator' shit... Meanwhile, Andy Xie at Morgan Stanley had already pointed out, 2 weeks ago, the adverse situation when hot money leaves China here, he thinks that RMB should be left pegged. Update 20/7/05 1057am - His words makes me rethink the whole situation yet again - given how China's central bank had said very little to not to inflate any revaluation speculation that these hot money are here solely for, should China ever let the RMB appreciates, that will probably do them more good in the short term, but long term-wise it will be harmful - they will attract even more creation of hot money, and hence flowing into Asia. Xie estimated the amount of hot money to be about USD$700 billion, so that's quite a large force, and we are (well I certainly was) forgetting one thing - hot money isn't a constant entity, it can also grow or shrink, by means of money coming in, and money leaving. If we still believe that China will revalue a little and then peg onto a basket of Asian currencies, even though hot money will probably diverge into other Asian economies because the floodgates are opened, effectively spreading the risk of them hot money outflows (Xie estimated that 50% of hot money is sitting inside China), however that sudden outflow can still have catastrophic effects on China's economy, unless China somehow tightens the outflow of hot money. Also, there are signs that hot money inflow had slowed down - dollar had been appreciating, but hot money are created each day in RMB. The federal funds rate (interest rate at which banks charge to lend money to each other) is also increasing, whilst Asian economies hadn't raise any rate (apart from HK, as far as I can recall), this gap is increasing. The longer this holds true, the harder it is to maintain these hot money. Also, remember, China's economy is nearly peaking (that's the term I was looking for!), which means that without any fuck up it can only go downhill middle term-wise. OTOH, what can Chinese central bankers say to not raise anymore speculation than the market has now? If they really decide to raise the RMB a little, then chances are even more hot money will be created and enter into either China itself or HK or otherwise, therefore, to not raise anymore hopes they are saying nothing whatsoever, and basically playing a game of silence with hot money investors, until one side eventually got bored and gives up. All the economists are talking about what will happen when China revalues, but how about "what will happen if China doesn't revalue, and hot money starts leaving?" Xie's voice is like a lighthouse in the lone sea, because the whole world is currently betting on China giving way before the hot money starts growing cold. I now think we shouldn't have hopes that high, even with the higher probability that China will revalue, we shouldn't be too shocked when hot money starts flowing out again. Hang Seng will definitely drop then. Meanwhile, I'm waiting for that day; let us not forget who's the dealer here.|W|P|112185165592467111|W|P|Well, RMB isn't going to go up this year...|W|P|7/20/2005 09:51:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Google grabbed this guy from Microsoft Search engine dept. to work for them, Microsoft is now sueing Google for assisting and encouraging the person in concern (Dr. Lee) to defect over, where in his contract with Microsoft there was a clause to oblige him not to work for a competitior for at least a year. Interesting piece of news, if you don't mind me saying :) A more complete news article here.|W|P|112184956293580605|W|P|Oh boy! Microsoft sues Google...|W|P|7/19/2005 07:43:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... I wasn't going to upload anymore songs, but these two songs are too good not to share, so here they are: 20) You may not have heard of Marc Bolan or/and T-Rex, but you've probably heard of the song 20th Century Boy, the song that was played repetitively in a Nokia Advert a couple of years back. This is an even more famous song, that riff, with the arrangements, is just so fucking massive that it's unforgettable! You will definitely remember this song after you've heard it for the first time. For those of you who knows T-Rex inside out - YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Featured song: Children of the Revolution. 21) Manics, Manics...this is the last song on their 18 track debut, and it's my favourite song in the whole album because as I've said before, this song is just so mature it sets itself immediately apart from the rest of the songs, both lyrically and musically. Enough said, now enjoy. Featured song: Condemned to Rock N' Roll.|W|P|112179789673744483|W|P|More songs on the Radioblog!|W|P|7/19/2005 02:27:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Saw this at Ana's blog, so let's play:)
YELLOW
You are very perceptive and smart. You are clear and to the point and have a great sense of humor. You are always learning and searching for understanding.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!
|W|P|112177974845859263|W|P|I'm yellow|W|P|7/19/2005 02:13:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|regarding to my discontent towards most banks before, now Barclays Plc. of the UK starts to provide premier banking services (like those in HK) for people with annual income higher than �G100,000+ or have �G50,000+ to invest. I don't earn �G100,000 a year, but certainly have �G50,000+ to invest...maybe I will give them a call one day...but then again, maybe not, because I bloody hate them all!|W|P|112177883644627675|W|P|Barclays Plc. now has 'premier' account services....|W|P|7/19/2005 02:00:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Haier, China's largest appliance maker, is considering topping Whirlpool's bid for Maytag, a dying appliance maker famous for Hoover brand vacuum cleaners (come on! Hoovers are out! We use at least Dysons, or at least water-based vacuum cleaners now). So CNOOC, TCL, SAIC and Lenovo's bids are afterall only the beginning of a wave of acquisitions by upcoming Chinese players in their fields (this REALLY is go global, none of that bullshit Chairman Mao had deceived us with half a century ago). Prepare Chinaphobes, be very scared, because we are coming! HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... None of that bullshit. Although we are only buying dying companies and/or small ones, not lucrative ones yet, nevertheless this does indicate a shift in China's macro- and microeconomic policies. OTOH, it's not hard to see the contrast between American and British attitudes towards companies being acquired by foreigners - in the case of MG Rover, The British government, although mostly for political reasons, seems pretty enthusiastic about the deal, whilst the Americans are barking at CNOOC day in day out; ok so now SAIC got Rover real cheap, which shouldn't go down well, but you will be surprised how the Brits took the news (because SAIC had promised that they won't outsource production back to China), certainly much better than the Americans when they found out that CNOOC is to engage in a bidding war with Chevron Texaco.|W|P|112177833534561324|W|P|Waves of acquisitions for Chinese companies...|W|P|7/19/2005 01:03:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|(click on the title, news article from http://finance.yahoo.com) I've got nothing to add, glad I'm only here for 4 months as a contractor really...pity for those who are gonig to get laid-off...|W|P|112177470939136556|W|P|HP to announce massive job cuts...|W|P|7/19/2005 12:12:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|(Jees...When can I stop thinking about this and move on?) As you probably had gathered, I believe that if China jumps, everybody must jump whether they like it or not, and therefore hot money won't be as concentrated as others may think in HK. The fact that I'm betting on China will only let RMB appreciate for a little and then peg itself to a basket of other currencies is out of consideration of politics & economics - we all know, and have to admit that, China had had an unfair advantage when it comes to economics because of RMB's extraordinary low value, which means that the rest of Asia, in order to remain that competitive edge against China, must also do what China do - buy US treasuries to keep the USD from going down (transactions are done in USD). When (not if anymore) China finally revalues it's currency, then it creates a level playing field for everybody, inducing (possibly) fair and positive competition. Pegging RMB to other currencies also indicates an early sign of the shift of economic power from the US to China. Upon seeing articles like this one, I have no doubt that revaluating the RMB is a good thing, providing the timing is right and they do it right. I can say that this time is very very soon. Also, appreciating the RMB eases inflation pressures due to possible economic slowdown, although there is no rise in absolute terms, effectively once the RMB appreciates, imports will become cheaper, and hopefully people will spend more. More import can also ease off that mountainous trade deficit of the US, although in the short term I believe it will rise. What worries me though, is the US's possible reactions to all this - they have been barking for ages that RMB is undervalued for at least 40%, therefore I have every reason to believe that whatever China does it's definitely not enough for the US. So imports from China will decrease, but it doesn't mean that outsourcing won't continue - in fact, when the playing field is level in Asia, production will most likely to shift from China to Malaysia or Philippines or whatever, hence US trade deficit won't actually decrease much this way - only more consumption from Asian countries, AND more savings in the US TOGETHER will help fight off the twin deficits. When China does their part, it's up to the US to do theirs as well; judging from politicians' reaction though, I don't think they wanted to their people to know that. We shouldn't forget, however, that the reason the Chinese got so much reserves in the first place is because of very heavy FDI (Foreign Direct Investment) from foreign countries, which contributes towards their sharp rise, year on year, in reserve accumulation. When RMB appreciates (to the amount that the US wanted - 40%, and assuming that the US didn't try to force anything out of China), China will lose that (unfair) competitive edge they used to have, and amount of FDI will definitely decrease and move to other Asian countries, if not by a substantial amount (yes, I finished that book on the FED, and moving onto that book about FDI in China now). This means that, with private domestic enterprises contributing to so little towards the Chinese economy, effectively reserve accumulation will most likely to stop - China cannot carry on funding US deficit like they did before, albeit the fact that they have nearly $800 billion already; however, the daunting thing is - at the same time the US twin deficit won't come down because things have merely shifted from China to other countries, therefore if drastic fiscal tightening and economic recession don't come soon enough, then the twin deficits can only get worse. If we all believe that US twin deficits will come down in no time at all, and as soon as China's foreign reserves accumulation slows the central bank will stop buying US treasuries (and this timeline will come sooner than US breaking even, which I think has a high chance), instead spending what they've got in their own country (which I believe is what China ultimately wants to do), then one can safely assume that the US is pretty much fucked up the arse, many times. Remember that, when china has THAT much money, providing that they have the competence to do it, then they can pretty much sustain their economy through that period of global recession because of the US. With national savings rate that high, if China then adopts procedures to encourage consumer spending, then there's a probable chance that China will overtake the Us to become the world's prime consumer economy - of course we all know that all spending and no money making is a bad thing, therefore in order to learn from the US, China also needs to expand their own economy and industry inline with this rise. If we assume that by the time that came, most Asian countries, including Europe, had already carried out evasive procedures - stopped buying US treasuries, or even started changing them for Euro- or RMB-based assets - to distance themselves from the US (with China taking measure to try and exert influences by means of investment, even now, in Latin America Africa, parts of the Middle East such as Iran, one can safely assume that they will carry on doing so, and the scale can only go up), and the US is STILL trying to deny that they are the cause of their own problems for whatever reasons (the sooner they realise this, the smaller the chances that they will fuck the world over, which is certainly the better), then basically when the US economy can sustain no longer and goes into recession, it will have minimal effect, hopefully, on the rest of the world. (Please don't take these views for granted, these are merely musings during work, and they are rather wishful - I haven't yet added in the fact that the Chinese economy itself is very vulnerable due to over-dependence on FDI and the fact that private domestic firms simply cannot thrive in that heavily biased environment; and the fact that China's markets are no way as liberal as say UK, and therefore there's always risk of government intervention or bail-outs, which makes it not a good business environment, plus many other details that I haven't included at all etc., thus this doesn't really count as a prediction at all, just random ramblings...) The immediate worst case scenario for me, though, is - no matter what China does, US will brand the Chinese as "currency manipulators" and enforces heavy tariffs on Chinese goods. When that is done they will break WTO regulations, and thus China, being sensitive to political and economical bullying, retaliates - and ultimately this trade war will be full-scale, and thus affects the whole world, inducing more economic and political strains. Sigh, either way this will goes down to global economic recession as well. Hope that this doesn't happen at all.|W|P|112177163233183689|W|P|Yet more on the RMB revaluation...and then I let my thoughts run wild...|W|P|7/18/2005 05:51:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|1) Hana Maru of the USA - from what she writes she sounds like a down-to-earth kind of girl, with a not-so-down-to-earth sort of life. Some introvertive posts that one should read every now and then to remind oneself that we are, in fact, all humans, and humans have emotions as well. A copurageous girl. 2) Self-Exile - her degree of depression strongly reminds me of myself when I was 15 and my mother a couple of years before her accidental death, which the present me doesn't think is good for neither the mind, body and soul (this isn't implying on anything, just an objective statement). However what she wrote somehow touches me...probably because our sensuality are similar in nature - one can probably deduce that I am a workaholic for obvious reasons. Both are personal blogs, and I add them out of shear friendship; therefore, only click it if you want to, otherwise, fuck off.|W|P|112170549584083264|W|P|More links!!!|W|P|7/18/2005 04:45:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click on the title and read it (if you want), what EastSouthWestNorth (ESWN) said about the emergence of free paper in HK (& bridge blogging). What interested me isn't what ESWN said about my previous post, but what he said afterwards: "As an individual person, I think that the more interesting blog post would be about my meeting with the Metro managemet in Santiago de Chile in which they explained their business model and distribution strategy to me. And I can also tell you more than two or three things about the readership characteristics of free vs. paid newspapers that may affect their survivability." I personality found that very interesting, and should ESWN decided to write about the two topics he outlined, I will certainly be the first one to read them. I was interested by this topic, that's the sole reason why I wrote those posts. Something else that is interesting is Bridge blogging - "usually the project of a single blogger, or a small group of authors. Bridge bloggers write for an audience outside their everyday reality - for instance, when Ory Okolloh writes about corruption in Kenya, reaching family at home and readers at Harvard, she is bridge blogging. And when people comment on her blog from outside Kenya, they're bridging back." (from this Global voices Wiki page here) As for bridge blogging, by definition, it's how I intend to write my more serious blogs in the first place - to inform, with english, others about what's happening, in Hong Kong, UK or otherwise, since we don't live in a society where we all have perfect access to information. However, I never had such definite concept in mind, until now; and the fact is - everytime I write such posts, it's as much an intellectual journey for me as informing other bloggers about what's happening, what's behind it, and what the consequences are. the advent of internet and blogging allowed and motivated me, basically, to carry out research on topics which I was interested, had no previous knowledge, and otherwise wouldn't be able to for one reason or another. Two more things to say to ESWN: blog whichever way you want, and can; also, the link to my post is wrong.|W|P|112170103340092610|W|P|In reply to EastSouthWestNorth...plus some thoughts...|W|P|7/18/2005 04:05:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|From the previous post, it's worth noting that China's economy had slowed down, therefore the prospect of RMB revaluation is back on everybody's agenda (the FT headline news is here). On fellow blogger Ana's post, I made a reply regarding where the Hang Seng will go at the end of the year when RMB will probably have moved, and USD inevitably started to drop - The difference between your honey's views on Hang Seng and my views are our difference in perceiving when the RMB will be revalued. I think that your honey thinks that RMB will appreciate as soon as Autumn, whereas I don't think the RMB will REALLY move until next year. If you've seen my latest post on my blog, China is already showing signs of an economic slowdown, this news came out on the front page of the FT on friday. I have changed my views (again) back to ��China won't revalue RMB just yet, but soon��. Indicators aren't pointing downwards, but they are not rising as fast as they were before, therefore I believe that China will now seriously reconsider their position on RMB revaluation; if this slowdown appeared at the beginning of next year, I think the RMB will have appreciated already. The US had previously prosponed the voting for their protectionist measures/tariffs against China because China had subtly indicated that they will revalue the RMB, however, after the releases of these data the US may change their mind again. Whether the speculative ��hot money betting on RMB rise�� will continue to stay in HK or not depends totally on how US reacts to these Chinese figures. If they then enforce heavy tariffs on China again to pressure China (politically) into submission, I believe this will have the opposite effect (China won't move a bit), thus seriously put off speculative hot money... Having said that, the best bet will be that China will let the RMB rise just a little, and then peg to a basket of other currencies, this is certainly less than what the US wants. Also, if China decides to peg the RMB to other currencies, this also diverts the flow of hot money from concentrating in HK. However, if China had made their stance very clear - they're only going to rise a little, then I believe hot money, instead of staying in HK, will also flow to other economies in SE Asia as well, meaning that less money than expected will stay at HK to bet on the RMB in the face of a possible economic slowdown in China. Hence, when USD starts to fall, Asian central banks have to work quite hard to peg their currencies again (USD had already deppreciated against the EUR compare to couple of years ago), this will put strains in both themselves and their economies. That's why I think the Hang Send may drop at the end of the year, but this drop will be small compare to the USD because HK economy is going up, it can't be that bad, unless there's something very wrong with the US or China. There are two sides of the same argument - Hang Seng will either go up or down. My argument is that since RMB revaluation will probably be minimal (5 - 10% is probably your best bet, hence it really isn't a lot), and if we assume that China then decides to peg the RMB against a basket of other currency after the initial revaluation (which I think is the best bet), then the Hang Seng will go down due to the natural process of profit taking/sell off since there's less hot money to influence the HK market as a whole; the other side of the argument is that Hang Seng will stay up in the face of hot money flowing into HK, because HKD is most closely tied to the RMB. Take your pick. There's also one thing to note - Prof Roubini had noted if the RMB goes up, it will not only do China no harm, possibly even more good - which means that effect on export to the US will be absolutely minimal. This is good for China, but what about the US? This means that the dollar value of imports, if import qunatity didn't change at all, will go up ( due to higher RMB) -> trade deficit will go up instead of down -> what's more, this means that the US needs more financing -> subsequently leads to more purchasing of US treasuries from China -> which in turn drives the long term interest rate even lower than it is now? If the fed keep driving short term interest rates up, then won't that looks even more lilke an inverted yield curve? That equals first signs of economic recession -> hard landing ->not good.|W|P|112169863699432167|W|P|More to say about the RMB...again...|W|P|7/18/2005 01:32:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click on the title, the Prof. Roubini had noted that China's economy had started to show signs of slowing down, meaning it's still on the way up, just not as fast and furious as before. In my opinion it still came too early (I really did think that with the momentum it gathered over the past years, a slowdown won't happen until next year), together with Asia's demand for oil decreasing - they haven't actually consumed less, but instead slowly changing their energy source from oil to others like coal and LNG (from Andy Xie of Morgan Stanley) - but that alone is enough. I agree with Xie, I also believe that the oil speculative bubble is coming towards an end (not THE end alas, and not soon, maybe next year when speculators move their money from oil futures to other sources) - despite hurricanes raging through Americas for the whole of last week, harming supplies, oil prices dropped - meaning that a supply disruption isn't as important as a demand slowdown; compare that with last year's hurricanes, with hindsight, that was just an excuse for speculators, oil cartels and companies to push crude prices up. However, if you say that last year, how many people will listen to you?|W|P|112169001969484224|W|P|Damn it, it came too early!!!|W|P|7/17/2005 04:58:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|
Which British Band Are You?
|W|P|112161595099665800|W|P|hardly surprising is it?|W|P|7/17/2005 11:55:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P| This picture I received from an email, so I don't know who the source is. Anyway, the sole purpose of this picture is to lighten everybody up (except the French) who were shocked after the London Terror attack. Yes, despite the attack, we shouldn't forget that LONDON HAD WON THE 2012 OLYMPICS! IN YOUR FACE PARIS! HOW DID YOUR OWN FAILURE TASTE? MAYBE BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME....MEANWHILE, US BRITS WILL CARRY ON LAUGHING.|W|P|112159779829427714|W|P|OMG, check this picture out...|W|P|7/14/2005 07:27:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|I hardly read newspapers from Hong Kong anymore, because of their generally poor quality, poor accessibility (for me anyway) and sometimes shallow and misleading articles (as you may know, I'm much more interested in international news than I am in local news); however, as I was reading Florence's blog Over the Rainbow and Duke's blog lately, it seems that HK is finally tackling the free newspaper market, following the footsteps of Europe, UK and the US, trying to catch up with the imminent trend. Free newspaper is nothing new. In 1999, when London-based free daily newspaper Metro was launched (it originates from Sweeden, but London was the first place it landed on), it literally has a monopoly to itself, with millions circulating the underground (plus other cities) each day. It's not the case anymore of course, and many entrepreneurs quickly spotted the opportunity, God knows how much money they made (and making), and apparently their main revenue is from advertising. (Unofficial figures states about 20+ million pounds profit each year) Although I haven't talked about the phenomenon of free newspapers, I have, however, talked about the strange phenomenon of the HK media industry comparing with the media industry in the UK here and here. Therefore, when I tried to apply what I've said about tabloid papers onto the free paper case, it's not that hard to actually analyse what implication these free newspapers have on the media industries as a whole, because I believe that essentially free newspapers is a transformation, or evolution of tabloid paper. To me, how and why free newspapers appeared in HK in the first place is unimportant, the reason is clearly written on Sing Tao's CEO's face, and many HK bloggers had already noted that, I have nothing to add. However, what I'm interested in are the questions Does it actually work? What implications do free newspapers have on the HK media industry as a whole? I would like to conduct an informal investigation into this (like I always did), and try to analyse the situation from a few pre-defined perspectives, and try to come up with a conclusion from what I've found out. If you didn't know what I was talking about, please, go up, click on the links, and read the two posts that I have written (they are prequel and sequel of each other), then you will have a better idea of where I came from with my points. 1) The nature of free newspapers If any of you have read a copy of Metro or something similar, it's not difficult to find out that in fact free newspapers are in many ways similar to tabloid newspapers. One can simply look at where the free newspapers are being circulated - big cities, and especially London, right outside the tube stations, bus stops, outside busy shops etc.. I remembered that, when I use to leave my flat in London for a 9 o'clock lecture at Imperial, if I leave home later than usual (say 8:45-ish) then all the Metros will be gone; I only see them if I leave home before 8:30. This not only shows you how popular the free newspaper in UK had become (according to Associated Newspapers, Metro's managers and publishers, more than one million copies of Metroare being circulated each day throughout the UK), but also what kind of people who reads them (blue and white collar working people). From them you can probably deduce the nature of free newspapers - a quick and easy read, because they are very short of time, with average tube journeys under 30 minutes. I've picked up a copy of Metro once, it's quite thin by quality newspapers standard (less than 30 pages, FT has more than 50 sometimes), but it has everything - from Local news, International news, to comments and sport. Most importantly, from start to finish it took me less than 30 minutes to read...Hang on, ain't that what tabloid newspapers are? Ok, so there are no top-naked page 3 girls, but judging by the standard of written English, informativeness, quality of pictures, it's really walking the fine line between serious and tabloid journalism - it has the seriousness of traditional journalism, but in a tabloid format where pictures are big and words are relatively scarce (I shall emphasise here again, it takes me on average one hour to read the FT from start to finish) - therefore one can conclude roughly that free newspapers are the hybrid between serious and tabloid journalism. That's the description at best, most journalists still class free newspapers as tabloid newspapers, mostly because of their content and format. 2) Why free newspapers? This is perhaps the most simple question of all, and it doesn't include much business sense either. You have paid quality newspapers and you have paid tabloid newspapers, so why free ones? Well, simple - it's FREE of course! In the UK it costs �G1 to buy a copy of FT, and other quality newspapers aren't relatively cheap either; most tabloid newspapers costs about 30p or so, but even that can't beat 0p - free! This mentality is the same everywhere, whether it's Sweeden, Hong Kong, or Seattle. If it's free, it wouldn't do anybody any harm to pick it up, so why not? More importantly, what creates better advertisement methods than a product that's free? Metro has more than 1 million copies circulating everyday, therefore the free newspapers, if successful, can survive on shear advertisement revenues alone, and that's how free newspapers survived. Even Hong Kong's first free newspaper Metropolis Daily (whose parent company is also Metro Group, kindly corrected by spacehunt - 17/7/05) has circulation figures of about 300,000 copies per day (figures provided by HKABC). 3) Does it work for Hong Kong? What implication does it have on the HK media industry? (I deliberately put these 2 questions together because they are essentially the cause and effect of the same question) Before we can assess these questions, we need to assess HK and the UK's newspaper industry sizes. Initially I was going to do this by revenue, but knowing that these media companies doesn't only work in the newspaper industry (others have different ventures somewhere else, which could contribute to their overall revenue); there's also the issue of cost and exchange rates, so I've decided to use newspaper circulation figures instead. All figure are from paid newspapers According to figures published by the Guardian (registration required), as of April 2003, average daily circulation figures for mainstream paid newspapers (excluding local newspapers and free ones) are about 12.1 million copies; according to UNESCAP's (United Nations Economic and Socialcommissionn for Asia and the Pacific) published figures, as of 1995, daily newspaper circulation in HK amounts to 4.5 million (it's the closest complete figures I can find ). By circulation, HK's newspaper industry is about 2-3 times as small as UK's. However there are data issues. I cannot find out where the UNESCAP based their figures on, and my UK figures had only counted the 11 most widely read newspapers in the country, given UK's geographic size compared to HK, the amount of local newspapers and their circulation could add to a substantial amount, so 4-5 times are a safer bet for me. I have tried to use more recent figures from the HKABC, however since Oriental Daily and Sing Tao, the 2 largest news companies in terms of circulation, had not joined this non-profit organisation, therefore I cannot gather enough figures (omitting those 2 missing news companies, daily newspaper for paid newspapers stands at about 810 000, which isn't a lot; either there are huge discrepencies between the UN and HKABC figures, or the market had shrunk since then). Given that UK's population is about 60.4 million (from Google, just type UK population), and HK's population is 6.8 million (from People's daily Online), without even doing any mathematics, and ignoring factors such as multiple newspaper buying, one can safely say that the HK newspaper industry is very strained already, thus with a higher risk of saturation. So, will it work? Well, if this question was based purely on circulation figures, then I can say that free newspapers DO work. Take Metropolis Daily for example, 300,000 per day circulation is a very impressive figure, ok so it's only 1/3 of Metro, but locally that's still as much as the number of papers Apply Daily sells per day, even if the newspapers are free, with that amount of circulation, advertising revenue can be quite substantial to make the business worthwhile. Therefore, if Sing Tao's free newspaper can actually distribute the same number of newspapers, then it works. I believe that there's a market, even in HK (however strained it is now), for free newspapers, but I also believe that other news companies will quickly follow suit. The only thing HK entrepreneurs are good at are fucking copying each other, or copy strategies from abroad. Remember, Metro (corrected 17/7/05) is the company that kicked started the free newspaper trend in Hong Kong, but in the foreseeable future, when all the other company follow the trend, I believe that either: a) The traditional paper market will shrink, or; b) The free paper market itself will shrink, or; c) Both markets shrinks, or; d) Nothing happens, people happily absorbs the fact that they now have more choices, and will buy multiple newspapers. Surprisingly, like tabloid newspapers, free newspapers in the UK and Europe can fit in well into the newspaper industry because not only from my observations, but researches had shown that readers do indeed get more than one newspaper - the one free/tabloid, one quality newspaper combination being the most common. It is this multiple paper buying that allowed the free newspaper market to develop. Pick up a quality newspaper, pick up a tabloid one, and pick up a free one; essentially they are two different entities (what they report on are quite disimilar), therefore there's a higher chance that people will buy both the quality and free paper due to difference in content, and most of all, the other one is free. Again, it's the 'harmless' factor. However, I would like to state that in HK's case (especially This Sing Tao free paper) it's a little different. Metro (or Metropolis Daily) is one company that dedicates solely to publish free newspapers, however Sing Tao already has a paid newspaper, therefore for them doing another newspaper is like expanding the company - well, Sing Tao's CEO claimed that the free newspaper is independent from their flagship paper, however, upon reading Florence's blog I see something different - because as far as she knows, they didn't actually hire anyone, just kicking people from one paper to the other. That's hardly expanding the company is it? How independent can it be, if you get the same journalists who wrote Sing Tao Daily to write the free paper? Also, countries like UK has clearly defined market for different classes/target groups, that's how Metro fit in - it has a clearly defined target group, and it's aims and objectives are clear. In Hong Kong this isn't the case - the Tabloid market IS the traditional market, or their boundaries are so blurred that one cannot clearly define the two separately - so who are they aiming the free paper at really? Their own readers? But the contents are no different! Readers of other papers? If they are reading the other papers, what makes them want to read this watered-down version of a paper that they don't like now? People who doesn't read newspapers? It may lure them because it's free. Also, their marketing stratagy becomes important as well, since HK is a very small place - Metropolis Daily suceeded because they chose to distribute within MTR, the biggest train network in HK where millions ride it twice a day; however this right to distribute is exclusive, therefore Sing Tao and future papers have to go somewhere else - rumour has it that anthoer upcoming free paper am730 had already negotiated their exclusive distribution rights with KCR, the train company with network half the size of MTR. The 2 most lucrative distribution channels had already been taken, so if you don't know already, Sing Tao distribute their free paper the traditional way - newsagents (convenience store for you Americans) throughout Hong Kong. I'm afraid that's the best they can do so far, but it seems strange to me that they haven't tried on buses, minibuses or their stations at all; those two distribution methods can be very lucrative as well. Interestingly, the opening statement of Sing Tao's new paper, they claimed that this paper won't rely on their only source of income - advertising revenues! What a load of bullshit, without even shit to eat, how will that paper survive? I wonder, I will just have to wait and see - sooner or later they have to start putting up more advertisments, or just scrap the whole thing; I believe that's just gimmick to try to lure the masses in because most of them probably wouldn't understand the reason for doing free newspaper is for the advertising revenue, informativeness only comes second. I have stressed before that traditional newspapers in HK have absolutely everything in it, this is not a good sign, and in this case, when the free newspapers are not much differences, or even no difference from their traditional counterpart - it's basically the traditional Sing Tao Daily and it's free, watered down version - I believe that consumers will choose to buy either one of the other, especially when they share the same distribution method (this is point a); if we also take into account the credibility of free papers is that they are free, then there's a possibility that people will only get the free one in the future - if the contents of the free papers are no different from the paid ones, why bother buying the paid ones? Free ones are free! Points b & c are simpler to explain - if the market becomes so saturated after the emergence of these free newspapers (I assume that other companies will follow this trend), and massive profit loss incurred because of heavy competition, and where their own products are mutually conflicting, then the companies may end up not bothering with free papers anymore. This may or may not cause ripples within the free paper market itself, effecting independent papers like Metropolis Daily, depending on the loyalty of their readership. Point d is what already happened to the newspaper market in the UK, Europe and the US, but since HK's case is different, therefore if Sing Tao really wants this free market to become a worthwhile source of future revenue, then what the company must do, is to revolutionise their traditional counterpart (to give it a bit more quality) at the same time as they publish their free papers; otherwise when others also publishes their free counterparts, the whole market will only go downhill. Either way, the free market won't be here, in Hong Kong, for very long, and will be eaten by these locusts. According to this blogger, there's not much difference between the paid Sing Tao and their new free paper (Chinesee only). That's a worrying sight. Finally, one thing that interests me is the fact that how do you have competition when the product is already free? You can't slash prices anymore, if the competition gets so big that revenues/profits shrinks to the point of oblivion (due to higher costs like advertising etc.), then how can profits be made in such environment? Cutting advertising costs for customers? Cutting the only form of revenue? Then this is surely a vicious circle that is doomed to failure. (This was written in quite a hurry as you may or may not gather, so I didn't think it through that much. Anyone who wants to correct me, or have anything to say, please feel free to leave a comment) Update 15/7/05 0947 GMT - I reviewed this piece, and made a few amendments to it. By the way, most of the links of other blogs I posted here are in chinese, so if you can't read them, it's best if you don't bother. Update 17/7/07 1102 GMT - Thank you Spacehunt again for correcting me, and I have also added more points into the article, they are in blue for your convenience.|W|P|112135151394431072|W|P|Sing Tao newspaper (HK) is following the footsteps of Europe and the US (likes of Metro)|W|P|7/14/2005 11:58:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|My wife (and her family, all my in-laws) arrived in London a day earlier than I thought (on Saturday), so I took three days off and meet up with them on Monday because I had something to sort out in Bristol. Before that they were embarking on a trans-continental trip across most parts of Western Europe, where London was their last stop before disbandment and return to HK, they decided to stay for a couple more days (3 in fact) so that I can see them and they can see me - and more importantly, I and my wife can see each other. So basically, I was their free tour guide, and took them to places which their previous tour guide didn't take them due to whatever reason. Unfortunately, after the bombings, some places were closed, or had heightened their security, which means that it's more difficult than usual when it comes to logistics (luggage wise) and transport (public transport) - for example, Russell Square station was closed, and buses don't stop there, so it's impossible to take them to the British Museum, especially when my parents-in-law are quite old, and their legs can't cope with that much walking from Leicester Square (where they had lunch) all the way up to Russell Square; however, those same legs amazed me at how far they can walk when it comes to shopping, quite mysterious in my opinion. My tour guiding ended up mostly with photo sessions, but I didn't mind really. However, I do have something to bitch about, which in my opinion is quite a pity, given how much I love my in-laws - it's about my sister-in-law, Sabrina. Sabrina is a beautiful young girl who just reached her 20's, apart from that, there's nothing really special about her. Having married her sister, of course I tried to treat her well, most of the time with success, so I do kind of like her as a sister. However, at the same time she's quite a moody person, easily aggravated, and hence she has HUGE mood swings, sometimes for no apparent reason. Yes, you've guessed it, that's the thing I'm going to bitch about. To be honest, if you met her on the street, your eyes will probably follow her for a couple of seconds, and if you're her friend then you're either feel jealous or feel good depending on your gender and sexual orientation. She's extremely talkative, a bubbly personality, a really girlish sort of girl - gossip, frequent changes of boyfriends, and sometimes acting like a kid, even with that sort of sweet kiddy voice...You know what I mean. A great person to be around with as a friend, but it's not easily being her family, as I have experienced in the last three days. For the last three days, thrice her mood changed from good to bad to worse to repeating the 1883 Krakatoa eruption (this was, and still is, the largest volcano eruption on recorded history), and thrice on the same thing but by different person - the first time my wife, the second and third time my father-in-law. She was criticised and corrected for her improper use of the English language, most of the mistakes that HKers make on a regular basis, sentences like "I very love you" or "Thank you you" (you know what I mean). It wasn't even a serious or patronising criticism - she's not the first one to make them, and certainly won't be the last...Ok so the whole family (I included) all laughed, and my wife and father-in-law corrected her, but it wasn't like we were laughing at her because her English was crap (there was no need for us to do that), we merely found it funny, neither were the corrections given out with malicious intention. Then things started to happen - she first started crying, and then her mood totally changed, she lashed out at my wife and her father, and then gave each and every one of us a lecture on how serious she was, and how not to joke around, and then stormed off like a little girl (which I think she still is)...I mean, lighten up bitch! Fuck off! I say and do whatever I fucking want, and who are you to fucking lecture me? Being the calm one, I didn't nor intended to react at all, but I found her reactions towards criticism, and her attitude towards her own family, totally inappropriate. Ok, no one likes being criticised, because they feel belittled, but frankly, what's wrong with being criticised? You make a mistake, you get criticised, that's how it works. She should be glad that it wasn't me or some other person who criticised her, with my sarcastic mentality - yes bitch, I am much better at English than you, so just take it and shut the fuck up. Even so, I was regularly corrected by my friends, classmates and colleagues for wrong pronunciation. I make a mistake, I get criticised, I learn, I never make that mistake again - that's how humans improve. So what's wrong with criticism? Why the urge to lash out in front of the public, and embarrass yourself and your family? What's worse? Being criticised so you never made that mistake again, or having no one criticising you to your face, but all laughing at you behind your back? You decide. After Sabrina stormed off, my mother-in-law took me aside, and started apologising to me on her daughter's behalf, claiming that all her children are like this, so please bear with them (in a way she's right, who knows them better than she does?). I talked to her for another while, and then she walked off with my father-in-law to try and comfort the now sulking Sabrina. I told my wife about the discontent I have towards her sister, she agreed, and told me, "I found that inappropriate as well. You know it's not the first time she has ever done this, I really want to ask her, if the person criticising her wasn't either of us, but Dom's sister and/or his dad, will she treat them like this? Probably not." Dom is Sabrina's boyfriend, in his mid-20's, works in middle-management or something, a normal guy. I like Dom, he's an easy going person, with gentle personality, and he has a big heart. He treats Sabrina like a Queen, and basically he's a servant who's on stand-by 24/7. Sometimes I don't like this sort of mentality, but it just shows that he loves Sabrina very much, I have no doubt about that, and I gather that Sabrina loves him quite a lot as well. As far as I can recall, Dom can take pretty much anything, except once when Sabrina was arguing with her brother Sam; you know how these brother - sister arguments always end up in a melee, pulling hair and all that (Sam is only 13), Dom was trying to calm them both down, incidentally Sam slapped Sabrina in the face (which I'm sure it was an accident), she cried, and Dom started scolding Sam for hitting her sister. That was the only time I saw him ever lost his temper, still it's nothing like how I am when I lose my temper. Back to the incident. I do agree with my wife, she does have a point. That kind of two-faceness shows when she's around distant relatives; I was informed that once when Dom stayed for dinner Sabrina almost ended up in a massive argument with mother, and Dom ended up having to separate them; I wasn't there, but I can imagine it pretty vividly, and it's not a pleasant sight. I just feels sorry for my father-in-law and my wife, they did nothing wrong, and I have every reason to believe that they corrected Sabrina out of good will, but in the end they get treated like this. I have huge respect for my father-in-law - he's an extremely intelligent entrepreneur, a true family man, he's soft hearted but at the same time he's tough, he's full of confidence but never cocky, he's kind but not easily manipulated; you try to out-smart him, chances are he already sussed you out. I learnt a lot from him, whether directly or indirectly - I can learn from him just by talking to him, his attitude towards things, and how he tackles problems; his no-nonsense management style, especially with money, influenced her daughter since she was very young, and her daughter in turn influenced me, which literally changed my life; what's even-more amazing is that he achieve all he has with shear intelligence and willpower, without any degrees that most of us have now (he didn't go beyond HKCEE in his days). He's not filthy rich, but I can tell you he earns more money than an average Investment banker. On the way back to the hotel, mother came up to me and started talking to me, she apologised again. I told her there's no need to, and then she started talking, like mother's always do, on her daughters, especially Sabrina, and sighed, she said that maybe they (her and father) spoiled her ever since she was young or something. At this point, my wife and Sabrina had caught up with us, I patter her on the shoulder and told her not to worry about it, and deliberately said hi to my wife and Sabrina, to inform mother that they are here. My wife asked us what we were talking about, my mother just joked how she was talking about her daughters, and then (guess what) Sabrina lashed out at her mother again for saying things like that in front of me. I sighed in my heart again, then my wife took my hand, and quicken our pace forward. I don't think that Sabrina really mistreats her family to the extent that I can smack her in the face and tell her to grow up, I just think that she takes her family for granted, certainly too much, to the extent that she can just blanks out their feelings and thinks that she's the queen of the family. Like my wife always said about her, "She only calls for mother when she's in some sort of trouble, otherwise she doesn't have a mother at all, it's all her and her boyfriend, boyfriend, and boyfriend." I hate these sort of girls who cannot reason, impulsive, and don't use their brain to think. If she's not now legally related to me, I would never make friends with these sort of people myself. As I never had much of a family, I appreciate the true value of a family - even when the world is against you, you can always go back to your family. She has a very good family sho cares for her, but sometimes she just doesn't see that at all. She needs to realise that her family isn't just an object, they are people who also have feelings, and therefore they should also be treated with TLC, openness and forgiveness. I didn't see any of that in the last couple of days.|W|P|112133868957609622|W|P|Well, it's back to work for me...|W|P|7/11/2005 08:24:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|...providing nothing ludricrous happens to me and/or the whole of London, blogging will resume on thursday. Ciao!!|W|P|112106673123019759|W|P|Right, I'm off to London for 3 days...|W|P|7/09/2005 01:47:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|In case you don't know already, I initially started blogging, like Jaycy, at www.bloghk.com. We both moved and started our own blogs because the server was becoming really fucking slow. Recently they upgraded their server (albeit still a little slow, but at least it's improvement), and I was able to go back to visited blogs that I used to read, which I couldn't do so for the last 6 long months (I think it was actually longer than that). Click on the title, and read the article + comments (don't worry, it's in chinese, unusual for those of you who've been reading my english writing since I started here). I started an informal debate with the owner of that blog (I shall name him devil here) about the nature of law (or at least we think it's about the nature of law) and I believe that this will be very a interesting discussion no matter the outcome and the levels of thinking involved, so I'm wriiting this blog to invite all of you to join in some healthy discussions that will actually benefit us all (providing NO ONE fucks around!). It's rather late now over here in Bristol, so I should really be sleeping, after I washed the dishes... We all knew each other through hkbloggers.com (I think only blog-you.com works now) or otherwise, now I would also like to encourage communications between bloggers at bloghk.com and us, because we are all bloggers in Hong Kong right? :)|W|P|112087073165613067|W|P|Some debate that I was involved in at bloghk.com (since yesterday)...|W|P|7/08/2005 11:29:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click on the title, read it, and laugh your heads off. It's amazing how little of those words in the article I actually know, I learnt something today. XD Or, if you want some more satire, goto the main page, I laughed so much that my stomach hurts. I gathered that he doesn't like bloggers, but the page is really funny in my opinion, so I can't help but spread the words, even though I am whom he hated. However, if you don't like satire, or don't know what it is, or if you are easily offended, then it's probably best if you don't goto that page, the owner of this shitty little blog (i.e. me) does not take any responsibilities for any physical or psychological damage caused, simply put - I don't give a fuck.|W|P|112086183563953131|W|P|This is really, really, REALLY funny...|W|P|7/08/2005 09:48:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|I saw this at Ana's, and felt quite inspired, so I decided to create an account, and jog down what I wanted to do with life, it's on the left hand side, just above the radioblog. I want a log like this because so I can keep track of what I wanted to do in life. What do you want to do? I hope you want to do what I want to do as well :) Go there and register if you want to join in as well, and if you're really nosy, then I have a treat for you there as well :P|W|P|112085577224863925|W|P|Things I wanted to do with my life...|W|P|7/08/2005 08:10:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|If you've read this post, you can see how annoyed I was at those comments made by Chinese students. So, I'm going to stop thinking about that, otherwise I will lose my temper to those morons... Click the title, and read this article from EastSouthWestNorth. Aids problem in China is just as bad as those in Africa, because folks are generally uneducated, or it goes against their religion, or for practical reasons, or they just did things like selling blood in the black market, using unclean needles etc.. Whatever it is, you can't ignore it. It really is heart breaking reading these articles (especially the end part), and I can only do what I can - donate to organisations established to help them. Sigh...when I have money, I will venture into upcoming pharmaceutical companies that does researches in Aids medicine (with background researches of course).|W|P|112084985416977083|W|P|I'm going to take my mind off those shallow people...|W|P|7/08/2005 02:21:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|(source: http://slate.com) The article (click on the title) has a point - It's the growing amount of Islamic extremists, and EXTREMISTS alone (not necessarily Muslims), in Europe that's truly worrying. Lord Curzon from Coming Anarchy talked of applying something like the Patriot Act in the US to Europe, to try and tackle terrorism, but do we really need it? Ok, so intelligence isn't all that effective, and we need a different approach, but I still have reservations about that sort of laws. I will read this up and write about it. Meanwhile, this is truly worrying, said by shallow people. Read it, and be appalled by those shallow comments that makes you ashamed of being a Chinese. Students my fucking arse, they don't even have a fucking brain, and should all be shot on the spot.|W|P|112082887958452034|W|P|Don't blame Iraq for the bombings...|W|P|7/08/2005 09:50:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|This is so British I just have to put it up. A Letter To The Terrorists, From London What the fuck do you think you're doing?

This is London. We've dealt with your sort before. You don't try and pull this on us.

Do you have any idea how many times our city has been attacked? Whatever you're trying to do, it's not going to work.

All you've done is end some of our lives, and ruin some more. How is that going to help you? You don't get rewarded for this kind of crap.

And if, as your MO indicates, you're an al-Qaeda group, then you're out of your tiny minds.

Because if this is a message to Tony Blair, we've got news for you. We don't much like our government ourselves, or what they do in our name. But, listen very clearly. We'll deal with that ourselves. We're London, and we've got our own way of doing things, and it doesn't involve tossing bombs around where innocent people are going about their lives.

And that's because we're better than you. Everyone is better than you. Our city works. We rather like it. And we're going to go about our lives. We're going to take care of the lives you ruined. And then we're going to work. And we're going down the pub.

So you can pack up your bombs, put them in your arseholes, and get the fuck out of our city.

(source: London News review)|W|P|112081289787262328|W|P|A letter to the terrorists, from London...|W|P|7/08/2005 12:11:00 AM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|I always repeat this to everybody, includig my wife, that "internet and blogs are weird places". Why? Because it's just truly mind boggling - although we never see each other's faces, we share thoughts and communicate just like we are friends. What I write in my blog, I also tell my wife and friends (my wife always talk to me about things big and small, and I really couldn't give a fuck whether my friends like me talking to them or not...they do really), so you know what they know. As I've told Sin before - if that's what friends are (and do), then we are friends. There are many types of friends, but all friendships are based on one thing - communications. During the "what is blog?" incident, I have repetitively commented that blogs gives us the ultimate anonymity - you can share your most private thoughts online, which you otherwise wouldn't or couldn't in reality, whilst keeping that so precious anonymity. This also applies to me, even though I blog about very private things like my life, I still manage to keep that anonymity, but I can also reveal them if I wanted to, I have quite a few friends who started off as friends on the net. That's what so amazing, and weird, about blogs, and I like it. Today, terrorists attacked London, the first thing I did was frantically trying to send numerous emails and phone calls to see if everybody was ok - although I was in Bristol, most of my friends and classmates are still in London; you really can't take chances on where people go, for all I know they maybe slap bang in the middle of one of those fucking bombs; getting through to everybody took over 2 hours because the mobile network was jammed pretty badly, but they all turned out to be ok, and I thanked God, which I never do. The next thing I did was to blog about it - by this time I already lost my working mood for the day - so I tried to inform people in HK and everyhere else (in fact, a visitor left an Italian message, and I replied, also in Italian) who didn't have instant access to such news what happened, and see if everybody else knew about it. It wasn't the most serious attitude towards the atrocity I know, but I condemn those terrorists no doubt. But what amazed me even more was this - some bloggers, whose blogs I read (not that I didn't want to, but because they were updated quite infrequently), started leaving messages here asking about how I was. None of my friends asked me if I was ok (because they knew bloody well that I was in Bristol), I was the one going around like a mad chicken trying to see if everybody was ok. It may sound patronising, but it really isn't, because I was totally flattered when I saw these messages; even though I am in Bristol, 100+ miles away from London, I still felt flattered. It's not the fact that they didn't know I wasn't in London, it was the caring they showed, my face blushed everytime I read one of those messages, in front of the monitor, like I was watching some porn at work, or something equivalent. Thank you, those of you who thought about me, and were concerned and left messages (I shalln't name them here, go find out for yourself if you're really that nosy), I'm really sorry, I just want to say again that I'm alive and well, and bitching about things, like ever. This is also what's amazing about the cyberspace. As for my wife? Well, she knows very well that I'm in Bristol, so there really is nothing for her to worry about, but she's arriving here in London on Sunday morning, so getting from London Heathrow to the hotel in central London could be a problem for her (and in my case, from London Paddington to the hotel as well); however, judging by how things went tonight, providing there were no more attacks, the whole city will return to normal at latest saturday. Life goes on. Good luck to those who needs it.|W|P|112077800006475881|W|P|I must say, "I'm flattered"...|W|P|7/07/2005 02:55:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P| (1st picture from bbc.co.uk, 2nd picture from reuters.co.uk) I phoned all my classmates, everyone I know who is in London is fine, thank God for that, it took me about 2 hours just to get through to everybody, the networks were jammed pretty badly. There's no doubt that this is s a terrorist attack, but who? That Al-Qaeda in Europe claim doesn't make much sense to me - Al-Qaeda is Al-Qaeda, what's with the seperate name? And they weren't heard of previously at all, and their statement, shown below, sounds kind of weird as well - In the name of God, the merciful, the compassionate, may peace be upon the cheerful one and undaunted fighter, Prophet Muhammad, God's peace be upon him.

Nation of Islam and Arab nation: Rejoice for it is time to take revenge against the British Zionist Crusader government in retaliation for the massacres Britain is committing in Iraq and Afghanistan. The heroic mujahideen have carried out a blessed raid in London. Britain is now burning with fear, terror and panic in its northern, southern, eastern, and western quarters.

We have repeatedly warned the British Government and people. We have fulfilled our promise and carried out our blessed military raid in Britain after our mujahideen exerted strenuous efforts over a long period of time to ensure the success of the raid.

We continue to warn the governments of Denmark and Italy and all the Crusader governments that they will be punished in the same way if they do not withdraw their troops from Iraq and Afghanistan. He who warns is excused.

God says: "You who believe: If ye will aid (the cause of) Allah, He will aid you, and plant your feet firmly."

This website had all the english translations of the statements released by Al-Qaeda - speeches by Osama Bin Laden. Update 15.23 pm 7/7/05: This is a map (source bbc.co.uk) of the blast this morning in London, 6 blasts in 4 locations (the BBC news article containing the map is here), I was trying to find a pattern from this, but gave up after a while because it really is unimportant where they strike, as along as it's in central London and near the Financial District (Old Street is near the London Stock Exchange, all the investment banks are out on Canary Wharf), so market had nosedived, and all transort in London is off. If this is what they want, then they suceeded. Bloody bastards. Damn it!! my wife is coming to London on Sunday, well looks like that she won't be able to get into the country, we will just have to wait and see... God bless all who were involved, even though I'm an athiest. More on this later... Update 15.33 pm 7/7/05: From the blogs I read, Simon, Phil, coming Anarchy and Nikita had commented, come on! where's the rest of us? HKers or not, please show that you care about these things! Update 16.28pm 7/7/05 - death count rises to 30 and 350 injured, and rising...Jesus Christ! update 19.59pm 7/7/05 - confirmed death toll 38, 750 injured, and still rising. Transport is still very much disrupted...|W|P|112074457743366515|W|P|Ok, I regained my composure..|W|P|7/07/2005 12:57:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|A day after London won the 2012 Olympics, makes you think the French did it for revenge, however the true intention behind the attacks are not clear, although there are mounting speculation that it's a terrorist attack. A bus got blown up in Russell Square, and a couple of tube station including Liverpool street, Old street, Edgware Road and King's Cross. My opinion: FUCKING HELL!!! THIS IS FUCKING LUDICROUS!!!|W|P|112073749066733776|W|P|WTF?? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?|W|P|7/06/2005 11:26:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click the title, read the comment. As much as I wanted Africa to be good, I agree with this article (up to a point) - live 8 alone wouldn't change shit. Think of the money raised in the first band aid some 20+ years ago, how much of them actually arrive at the font doors of those suffering lot in Africa? It's not easy running a charity, and the how many billions of pounds people had raised, very little actually goes through, each stage sees money flying off to obscurity - administration costs, bribing etc.. I also believe that Geldof's starting point is morally right - lifting poverty off millions of Africans, and he had been pushing the holy trinity - canceling of debt, increasing aid, and establishment of fair trade laws, more than ever. The fact that this agenda is on top priority of the G8 summit shows the result of his persistence. However, Geldof, along with most activists, missed one other vital point - as well as the western powers (G8), it's the African governments themselves that needed reforming the most, even more so than the need to help them out. Imagine giving Zimbabwe aid, what do you think Mugabe would have done with it? Certainly not for the good of the nation he leads, not even giving them shit for food. Martin Wolf of the FT was right in saying that the trinity can only be implemented step by step, starting with those African countries whose government is more tolerable. To be honest, make poverty history is too idealistic for me, for I fear that poverty can never be truly alleviated - think about the US and UK's social welfare system, in implementing welfare schemes it puts a very heavy burden on government's finances, and despite that poverty still hangs around (those minute percentages still represents real people); the inherent capitalistic system that we operate on means that there will always be a gap between rich and poor, however close that gap maybe; what's more, there's also a more fundamental problem behind poverty in Africa - the corruption and maligness of the African government, before aid can be given to them, they must clean up their act. That's how you teach kids at home right? Although one can argue that the west and the UN did very little to stop them...hey, there aren't that many George Bushes around, it takes a lot of excuses, money and conviction to push regime changes. One is quite a lot, and twice is heavy, let alone most African countries are either in war or have corrupted governments. Even if you give them the holy trinity, it doesn't automatically mean that Africa will be desined for prosperity - money is worthless if you don't know how to use it properly, be it at the personal level or international level - debt will mount up again without good finances; fair trade laws are useless if the Africans doesn't have a complete economy to operate - apart from the infrastructure, they also need investment, R&D and all that that makes a country functions. OTOH, if the sole point of Live 8 was to raise awareness and urge the G8 to do something, then I believe Geldof had succeeded. However, for those of you who donated money and went to the live 8 gig, don't think that by doing these shallow things you have changed the world, there's only one thing, and one thing alone, on this planet who can change the world - power - the ability to sustain that power, NOT complacency. One final note - you know what, I think it started to shed light on why the western countries are willing to give Africa aid, if they carried out the whole thing properly, then the next stage, after aid, will be injecting FDIs - all is not too disimilar when comparing them to China of 20+ years ago. More on this later.|W|P|112068886929960307|W|P|This article has a point you know...|W|P|7/06/2005 03:27:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P| (Dave Gilmour of Pink Floyd, picture from http://www.bbc.co.uk) If you can totally ignore the starving children in Africa, then Live 8 was definitely the biggest show on Earth - Elton John, U2, Paul McCartney, Coldplay, Madonna, Pink Floyd (OMFG!!!!), Velvet Revolver...and that was just the London gig, there are countless others across the globe - Berlin, Tokyo, South Africa...you get the idea. They banned all auctioning (hoax or real) on the internet, arrested anyone who tried to tout the tickets, and you can't buy these tickets, you can only enter a draw to get them. Still I tried, however unsuccessful that seemed...and of course I didn't fucking get one! You know, I would have killed (literally!) for that ticket. Don't even talk to me about the effective price of that fucking ticket...watching Pink Floyd already gurantees a good show, and worths all the money one pays. I kept telling people this - there are four bands I would destroy the universe to see - Led Zeppelin, Jimi Hendrix Experience (or Gypsy Sun u& Rainbows), Nirvana, and Pink Floyd, and Pink Floyd is the only one left that I might still be able to see before they all die!! The gig was broadcasted live last saturday on the BBC, but since I was busy doing something else, I missed it altogether...if I knew that Pink Floyd was playing that day (I didn't really pay any attention to the set list, apart from U2 and Elton John), my arse would have stuck to the sofa like shit on a blanket, and never left the fucking house in the first place!!! Damn it! May have to wait another 20 years for the DVD to come out...I really want to cry... See the line up here, and weep like the world is going to end tomorrow.|W|P|112065935997599937|W|P|I missed the live 8 concert...|W|P|7/06/2005 01:12:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P| Yeah!!!!!!!!!! In your face Chirac!!! We are hosting the Olympics! 54:50...that was a pretty close vote, considering paris was the favourite all the way. Now, the next question is: Can we pull it off?|W|P|112065204737969640|W|P|London is hosting the 2012 Olympics!!!|W|P|7/06/2005 12:07:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click the title, this is a short video (about 1 minute long) that one of my friends in Taiwan made with some other friends that I don't know, and the theme, obviously, is the game Metal Gear Solid. This is amateur stuff so don't expect Oscar-winning performances, however it isn't bad at all. Incase for some reason you cannot click the title, here's the link: http://home.so-net.net.tw/kenphin/acidmachine/s.htm May take some while to load though, if you have a slow connection.|W|P|112064806772716265|W|P|Not bad at all...amateur Metal Gear Solid movie|W|P|7/05/2005 03:48:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|For those of you who didn't know what was going on, click on the title and read the short article on the verdict of the case (in chinese). In reply to another fellow blogger's post - I couldn't post the whole comment because I was accused of spamming by the software she runs on her blog...damn spammers! Dear Ana: There are typically two types of cases, I believe: Genuine conviction cases, and technicality cases. This is the latter alas; how these cases ends, in the end, always comes down to mere technicalities - for example, in UK, if a driver was caught drink driving, and were tested for alcahol for a couple of times, if in between the testing, the police didn't exactlyfollow the procedures - clean the mouthpiece in between test, the drink driver cannot be convicted because technically the reading could be influenced by that little mistake, and therefore unfair, and hence it is unfounded. In this case, ICAC was wrong because it didn't follow the rulebook properly, and because they have gone to that length to convict Eason's father (too far), not only the conviction can be unfounded, but they can be sued by the defendent for invasion of provacy. I'm not saying that ICAC was wrong, infact I think they were right morally in doing so, but since they made that choice, they must also be prepared for this outcome, because they weren't playing by the rulebook. Of course, we live in a capitalistic world, therefore the quality of laywers is proportional to the amount of money one is willing (or able) to pay. Michael Jackson's laywers were VERY VERY good, but not in this way, they merely put up a very good defending case against Tom Sneddon, the prosecutor. In theory though, this shouldn't matter, just look at the Mclibel case between two environmentalists and McDonalds, although they lost the case, it scared McD shitless. Laws are sets of absolute rules, there are only black and white, guilty or not guilty. We are living in a law governed society, and therefore the most fundamental assumption we must make is this - absolute respect for law, this even puts it above morality, because otherwise the whole legal system will just break down, everyone will based their own judgement on morality - stealing food for their starving family will be justified by morality. If that's the case, who is going to respect the law? Ok, so this case turned out this way, but legally ICAC was on the wrong side, because they disrespected the law in the first place by tapping into Eason's father's phoneline. Morally they are right to obtain evidence, but legally they are wrong. Law acts as a tool for enforcement of order, if we don't have any law or order, we will be living in anarchy now, imagine that; but I agree with you, when something like this happens, it really makes one feel down and questions the law, however, laws are standards, and there are always exceptions to these standards, I can only say that this time they didn't get him. Cheer up though, for tomorrow is another day :)|W|P|112057496640799000|W|P|Eason Chan's father cleared of all charges of fraud and counterfeiting documents...|W|P|7/05/2005 01:24:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Reading Hemlock's diary (5/7 entry), it makes me so glad that I've managed (with a series of near-miracles) to pay off all outstanding mortgages, that will eventually drive me mad, last year (yes, all $3.4 million of them, it's not alot, but can still kill me in the end if I'm not careful), before the interest rates started to rise. There's another couple of hundred HKDs extra per month for just sitting on my fat arse and doing nothing (I know it's not a lot, but hey, it's still money right?), and from how things are going, the interest rate can only go up. Sorry to those folks who still have outstanding loans and mortgages to pay. Imagining how I would have felt if I am still paying those life-sucking mortgages, I have to agree with what Hemlock said in his diary...wisdom comes out of that man's mouth now and again. One question: Can anyone tell me what's the household savings rate as applied to HK? Is it as high as China? Update 5/7/05 13.46pm: Found the household savings data in the HK statistics department, which stated that deposit from customers into banks, as of 2004, stands at HKD$ 3866 billion, up 8.4% from last year's figure (HKD$ 3567 billion). Also, from here, GDP is down (but remember profits are up this year), consumer spending is down, export is up, import down, inflation started to pick up (but not alot), and unemployment rate is down. That's only last year's average statistics. When one look at figures released with the HKMA (Hong Kong Monetary Authority) - latest press release on statistics here (May 2005; Q1 2005 statistics here) - export is already down, latest savings figure is going down, and RMB reserve is up (I wonder why); also, total loans are on the way up as well (up 0.6% - loan to deposit ratio up to 87.0%). I believe, together with the diffrentials c.f. other countries like the US, these signs indicated that monetary policies in HK will be tightened, sooner or later, as preemptive measures towards possible excessive spending and inflation.|W|P|112056637306583752|W|P|Hong Kong banks raised 50 basis points on interests...|W|P|7/04/2005 08:47:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Click on the title, and look at it; from: ��s�w�w�O�Ц^����. What's interesting isn't the fact that the short poem resembles the numbers '7 1', but rather it's the reactions of a lot of other people on this subject (more from this delicious tag here). Since when did 1/7 - the day which HK returns to Chinese rule - became the symbol for HK democracy? Wasn't the sole reaason of that demonstration, where 500,000 HKers allegedly turned up, was because of the Anti-Article 23 of the HK basic law? Ok, so some people went because they wanted to shout "down with Tung Chee Wah!", so some of these people might have gone again last year to shout the same sentence; but this year? He's gone already... I didn't go alas, but judging from the photos, it looks rather like a carnival. It was an irony that the 71 march was associated with the handover holiday, and now it's another irony - 71 march = carnival? Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against this - I live in the UK and I vote, however I merely found this very interesting. Can someone answer my quuestion? This reminds me of this - (Freedom Tower this is to replace the attacked Twin Tower of NYC) Since when did us HKers turned into Americans?|W|P|112050640675488777|W|P|The symbolism of democracy?|W|P|7/04/2005 08:18:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Hmmm....this is interesting (click on the title to read linked article), Uocal doesn't even supply much oil and LNG to the US, and most of their oil fields are in SE Asia anyway, calling CNOOC's bid as a national security issue is really funny - if national security issue = future oil supply then fair enough, but it also sends out a very worrying indication...|W|P|112050473154606749|W|P|China tells US Congress to butt out of CNOOC's takeover bid for Unocal|W|P|7/04/2005 02:31:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P| GOD!!! WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT! TOTAL WASTE OF MY PRECIOUS MONEY! I mean, the prospect of Alien invasion isn't as scary as it used to be anymore, given that we had a lot of Hollywood hit movies like ID4:Independence day, MIB and all that crap, but if one can make a movie as thought provoking as HG Well's original novel, it can still be scary...but NO! Instead Spielberg focused on animated graphics, and merely USED A REALLY SHALLOW AND SHIT SCRIPT!!! Ok, so Spielberg changed the backgroubd to suit America and the 21st century, however it soon became clear that he was bogged down on the fucking details - too much effects, and the script totally missed the mark. He didn't even bother rewriting the script try and make it stand close to the well known HG Wells masterpiece, and he omitted some of the most vital details, which pissed me off very much. Below are a few thoughts after I watched the movie: 1) Those are meant to be fucking Martians, they came straight from Mars and didn't plant those machines there a million fucking years ago! I don't know why Spielberg decided to leave that out, the fact that he did made the storyline really really shit because now it just doesn't make logical sense - if they planted those things there already, why didn't they come earlier? I hope it's just the people in the movies' wrong perception, but he should have explained it as well. 2) Make the movie fucking longer! Apart from the Martian invasion, the novel also focused a lot of the protagonist's psychological state, and the state of the people he met from start to finish. The psychological grip of the characters, their descend into madness upon seeing the Martians, the despair of how technological advance they are compare to us, are what makes War of the Worlds so good, and Spielberg completely missed that. 3) There are also real practical problems like water and food. I never saw that psychological struggle at all from either Tom Cruise or Dokota Fanning - don't get me wrong, I have no doubt that the little girl is a good actress, but the problem comes from the script, so fucking shallow and didn't get to the main point. 4) A lot of other details were also missed out - like why there are those red plants spreading? Where did they come from? - those are meant to be plants on Mars...now, ok, so we know that there are no apparent lifeforms on Mars since that landing, but who knows? Maybe they are from under the fucking ground, or maybe that fact that they behave like amoeba - they can lay dorment until there are nutritions for them to grow. Spielberg is fucking lame without even trying to provide visual explanations for these aspects. 5) From the above points, the movie ends with the fact that the seemingly indestructable Martians were destroyed by bacteria - same as the novel? Come on!!! You think that having butchered the whole story like that, you can use the same ending as HG Wells did? It's just a fucking joke, and Morgan Freeman's narrative when the film starts and ends can hardly be convincing by any standards... Whoever wrote that script should be shot on the spot, along with the movie executives; so should Spielberg in that respect because he film the fucking script - given his prestige, he can do anything he wants! Why this load of shit? Conclusion? Don't waste your money watching it, stick to the novel instead, and maybe the 1953 movie.|W|P|112048394802902064|W|P|That's not War of the Worlds! That's just a pile of crap!|W|P|7/01/2005 07:01:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|Saw this as Sin's blog:
Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Sensual - You are not particularly shy when it comes to your sexuality. You know what you like and do not feel inhibited.Your date match profile: Intellectual - You seek out intelligence. Idle chit-chat is not what you are after. You prefer your date who can stimulate your mind. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape.
Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Athletic 3. Sensual 4. Wealthy/Ambitious 5. Adventurous 6. Outgoing 7. Intellectual 8. Stylish 9. Big-Hearted 10. Funny
Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Intellectual 2. Practical 3. Athletic 4. Romantic 5. Adventurous 6. Big-Hearted 7. Sensual 8. Traditional 9. Wealthy/Ambitious 10. Funny
Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions Hmmmm...my wife scores 3 out of 3, which is nice; however, my side of the table is a little inaccurate, because my wife was primarily drawn to my personality and intelligence :).|W|P|112024090772759357|W|P|My perfect date?|W|P|7/01/2005 05:18:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|I had always been against RMB appreciation (these can be seen from my bitchings in my previous blogs), but as China's central bank soften their stance since the beginning of the year, and as the world gears up for imminent appreciation of the RMB, my stance had also changed - now I think more of "what happens afterwards?", moving on from the "Will they or will they not?" mentality. Click on the title, and read what Nouriel Roubini had written about US net foreign debt (NIIP) with changes in exchange rates, it's very well written and I have read it about 5 times just to make sure because it was written so well. However, one question remains to be answered (in regard to Asian currency appreciation, not US's NIIP, that's doomed for destruction anyway) - what's going to happen afterwards? It's well known that, although most Asian currencies floated in 1998 amid the attack of George Soros and his gang, central banks had been intervening very heavily in the Forex market since the beginning of this century when the USD started to drop, and I think about $ 2.3 trillion worth of US treasuries are now owned by these central banks, which is an astronomical amount, this is to unofficially peg their currency against the USD, because they are fearing a large decline of USD will hamper not only their economy, but all those USD assets that they initially had. Now, if the RMB now appreciates, Prof. Roubini said that other Asian currencies are bound to follow and go up, easing the strain from pegging. Although this point had been disagreed and argued by my wife, who said, "who doesn't want RMB to go up and keep their exchange rate the same? All the other developing countries are fearing how cheap the RMB is now." But I'm afraid I have to agree with the Prof. here, because pegging like this cost money, a lot of money. Ok, so in theory these Asian central banks can print as much money as they want to buy US treasuries to keep their exchange rate the same, however, when the RMB appreciates, what will happen is (as Brad Setser had pointed out already) - China definitely won't let RMB sky-rocket out of control, it's in their best interest to let it appreciate slowly but steadily, they can do it since they have a fucking huge foreign reserve anyway. When this happens, hot money starts flowing in again from all directions, causing short term volatilities - those from inside China will flow to HK because now HKD is cheaper than before (however it won't be too significant, it's just the fact that they can only goto HK - what? you think the CNOOC bid doesn't need approval from the Grandpas?); meanwhile hot money from the rest of this planet will start flowing into Asia heavily, betting on further rise. This effect will definitely extend to other Asian countries, because people will bet on them appreciating as well. The main point is - can they fight these hot money off? They can surely print unlimited amount of money, however there's only so far one can go - printing too much money induces rapid inflation, risking default like Argentina did not too long ago. And even if they can fight it off now, how long can they keep doing it? Certainly not til the end of time. Will they be willing to risk their own economy to keep their own exchange rate down? In my opinion - they won't, and therefore I agree with the prof. and not my wife - Asian central banks will also have to appreciate their currency as well as China. It means that they are still on level playing field in China after that, rather undesirable for them, but look on the bright side - they can dump those USDs and whatever US asset they have, and move onto somewhere else, preventing themselves from further loss. Is that not better than being sucked into that black hole of debt of the USA? I'm still trying to grasp what the Chinese government will do after they had acquired various sources of energy resources, I will be back for more. By the way, if you haven't done so already, you may want to start buying RMB. :)|W|P|112023469215341256|W|P|Something to say about RMB...|W|P|7/01/2005 03:28:00 PM|W|P|無塵工作室|W|P|...however, I'm not allowed to talk about it because it's confidential, oh well...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~ (Yes, this is a junk blog...XD)|W|P|112022826609730089|W|P|Received my first confidential email (ever)|W|P|